@ddy's Musings

Checkout my very cute nieces!!

2011-11-29T19:56:00.001-08:00

Luv them to bits!

Can I be a part time mother??

2011-11-29T19:53:00.001-08:00

I had been thinking lately given that I have 2 offers. What do I want out of life? Seriously I don't think I am a very ambitious person. Climbing the corporate ladder dun think that suit me.

Next how about being domesticated
?? Well let's see. Being a mum, unless that is a part time job- maybe! Hahah wait till get a bun in the oven first lah! Being a housewife- no! Coz that means I have to clean cook! Hate that!

Oh no what else is there? Am sure Jesus din create me to be an idler! So what?

Back to the drawing board! Yi nee mai nee moh!!
Fark!

Media or marketing?

2011-11-29T10:36:00.001-08:00

Hate making such life changing decisions! Haiz...

Mediacom or Luxasia? How now brown cow? At this age I have to choose wisely!!

Do I wanna cruise or do I wanna be dynamic and piah my way up the corporate ladder??

Decisions decisions!!?? I sense my holis ending!!! What?!!!

SATC is my bible

2011-10-14T02:20:00.000-07:00

I have been spending about 2 weeks at home. Clearing stuffs, watching movies & playing with my nieces.

In between i watched SATC series plus the 2 movies. Gosh i swear each time i watch any episodes i get new revelations. Its like all these while the actual bible verses popping right out of the screen and into my face.

Pardon me Jesus and my dear Hubz. But it is true.

Night after night i try to read the bible and tries to connect with God, I just get a void. However each episode of SATC and i swear i get a new revelation of how i want my life to be and my life direction.

"We were perfectly happy before we decided to live happily ever after."

I like this sentence. Its from SATC movie 1. Do woman still seek to live happily ever after?

I know there isn't any happily ever after. We live in the real world. Tons of crap day in and day out. But do we actually try to minimise the unhappiness!?

Yawnz...

2011-10-03T11:28:00.001-07:00

Am hooked onto this game! its addictive!

I bite the dust

2011-10-03T11:21:00.000-07:00

I used to love time. Nowadays time just keeps moving. It never stops, least i wish it will stop. I read back my past blog entries. I see so much changes.

Like i used to write alot. What happened?

Like i used to chat alot on the phone. What happened?

Like i used to like reading books (even though they were all romance trash). What happened?

Like i used to have alot of friends. What happened?

Many more what happens..?? I think growing up sucks. So much things matter, and don't matter. I used to laugh at every and anything. Nowadays i worry being the subject of ridicule. What happened to me?

Oh well, ramblings on and on. Yeah thats Addy. When all avenues fail, i fall back on this blog to give me that avenue.

I quit Soo Kee. Or least we quit each other. I can't stand their emotional decision making and they can't stand my assertiveness. So let us just not waste each others time and move on. Truth be told, i was abit sad. I had always believed in my capabilities, may not be the best but hey i think i bring alot to the damm organisation.

Thinking back on my Loreal days which really helped mould me alot. Looking at my career for the past 10 years, i must say i am blessed. From someone down and out doing procurement to where i am today. I am happy. Yes sometimes i wish for more, but who wouldn't. Any sane person would, coz it is never enough.

I need to brush up my English or copy writing skills. So am going to try and blog more. Anyhow yes this blog entry is about me quiting Soo Kee, so yes i bite the dust. Am a free woman again.

Come what may.

Blogging on my iPhone

2011-09-18T00:28:00.001-07:00

Wow... Test test test. I lurve my iPhone!! It's like a one stop shop for everything.

Hope I can blog more and focus my train of tots. :)

Almost forgot this private place...well almost private!

2011-09-04T07:27:00.000-07:00

Yawnz...Its Sunday and here i am going to face the week all by myself. Yes my dearest ah Bang is going on another overseas trip till Friday.

Wow in fact its been almost a year hor! Geez i really need to get back to blogging. Helps to clear my wandering mind.

Almost the time of my confirmation very soon at Soo Kee. Frankly i don't know if i want to be confirmed or not. Working in a family-owned biz where every decision is made based on emotions and gut feel can't be good. Past 6 months, the constant roller coaster and weekly flavors are seriously getting on my nerves. Tons of potential good ideas are thrown back at our faces after the initial fad is over.

While the whole thing ain't that bad, it has its good sides too. Overall i feel my inner being feeling better, and i am more happy. However the same old pathetic support i get from my management is sad. Makes me angrier when here i am trying to do things, and there the management still says it is nothing worth mention. They are the typical - always thinking OTHERS are better mentality. Why can't they be positive and think that their staff ARE Better!

Oh well..another week looms and another chasing targets week. Wish myself luck and God gives me strength.

Search for memories - Europe trip hotels

2010-08-22T09:00:00.000-07:00

Today i had a gathering with some of my new found Europe friends. Again memories of the lovely Europe trip came back to me. Soooo sad...that i had decided to embark on yet another project. A super mini one if my memory don't fail me.

Shall trace back to ALL the hotels we stayed during the 15 days trips from Paris- Switzerland - Italy!

hahaha...well well nothing better else to do. shall post the pics on FB or here. Decide when i can actually find the pics first.

Alritey... toodles for now!

Being a lady of leisure

2010-08-19T07:06:00.000-07:00

Many times the above thought had fleeted through my mind. Think there never seem to be a minute or a day that i do not think about it.

I want to escape. I want my 'ME' TIME. I want to NOT worry about having no $$. I just want to be me.

Work work work and especially working in LOREAL builds not only your resilience but your aptitude. Your ability to think fast sharpens and all you do everyday is FIGHT fire.

When is a day i don't have to FIGHT fire. When... do i need to look elsewhere. Am waiting for my 2 years, afterwhich i think i have enough. I just want to move on.

K...another mindless post. but hey peektures time.

New Project - VNA 45 Not-so-Singaporean places

2010-08-07T10:12:00.001-07:00

2 weeks ago i saw this article in Cleo talking about 45 places in Singapore that can actually take someone out to another country altogether! true enough the way the photo came out was quite interesting.

That sparked me to go discuss with V. About how our weekends are sometimes boring and uninspiring! So I said hey we have a car...i have a camera...lets head out to these places and replicate the same thing.

Plus we have a long weekend coming up that we aren't heading anywhere. So come on...

so TODAY after church service in Jurong, we finally embarked on our first destination from the West. these are the piccies which i think not bad after going thru Picnik (my fav website for photo editing)

Enjoy and continue to check my FB out for new places. and of coz not forgetting the behind the scenes too. =)

Enjoy

Treasured Moments worth millions

2010-08-03T20:27:00.000-07:00

Over the weekend, i attended my bestest Gong-Gong funeral. He was 92. Was sad that he had to go but i realised it was a release from his illness also. So am glad he was able to leave quietly and painlessly (apparently with just 2 coughs, he caught the last breathe and passed on with the maid beside him).

During the past 4 days, i had time to be in Pontian at the wake with my cuz, my ah Ma, my parents & my siblings. The time spent was soooo precious. I had quality time with my sis and my bro without our own other halfs. Also suddenly i realised how old my parents are and how they ain't strong like I know them before. I saw a side of my dad i never saw before and i want to be a better daughter to both my parents.

I wanna spend more moments with all my loved ones. Top most priority!

A mindless tiff

2010-07-26T09:45:00.000-07:00

Ok...since i am on a roll of remembering that i have a blog. shall blog one more ...about the silly tiff i had with V.

I think i get cranky all the time when my period is near (meaning yet again sooon). So yet again i AM feeling cranky and irritated TODAY. So i really don't feel like doing anything but laze around after work.

Not helping i fell abit sick during work...weird stomach & a sudden bout of fever hit me. Anyhow i got over it i think with tons of water. So just wanna relax. But NO dear MR V wants to go jog, when dear me is sick...tired & hungry. I just want to have a decent meal.

So i got him to go to our fav zhi char store and order like a 3 dishes meal. But i did tell him the moment i got on the car...i don't feel well ...just wanna have a decent meal and maybe skip the JOG!!!

But V kept pushing me to do the STOOPID friggin jog. From after dinner...till after my daily dose of drama... still insisting i go walk walk or stroll stroll with him. I SNAPPED!!! I banged the door...i slammed the cupboards while changing. I just don't feel like GOING!!! So in the end i was out of the front door and my last slam on the door snapped his nerve too. So V stormed back in the house and said to NOT go jogging anymore.

Seriously can anyone feel glad and guilty all at the same time?! At that moment i felt that! hurhur... oh well ...so more slamming and shouting... in the end ....cooling period....

he went to wash clothes and i went to bathe...silence filled the house.....

Then my guilt took over and i went to say sorry for being such a bitch but truly i REALLY don't want to jog today. And ta-dah...KISS & MAKE UP!!!

the stories of my colorful life with V..sometimes quite childish and hilarious!!! thought i pen this down and laugh at it a few month later how totally mindless this is....and UNNECESSARY!!!

okie...time for nap! V's a-calling!!!

Revisiting Addy's blog during office hours!! OOPS!

2010-07-26T01:12:00.000-07:00

Little Sophie

Little Angel

Firstly i have to SAY I AM NOT FREE! It is just this sudden urge to visit my super stagnant blog and add some colors to it.

Well I have been visiting this sad sad blog on and off but basically was reading my past entries and just having a good laugh. I used to write diaries and till date still laugh when i read them. So i guess i enjoy laughing at my own weird antics.

Yes and i think more often than NOT, as i see a pattern appearing i realised i like to be abit ditsy to people rather than serious. Guess 2 sides to everything you say. To each his own...honestly i can't care less truly. mmm...so people think i don't act my age AKA Addy is childish. (But of coz people pretend they are NICE so they don't say it in SO MANY words) Haiz...

Oh well working in LOREAL for like a year and a half. I had learnt to NOT be SOOOO mindful of what other people say. I mean my whole team including my boss is younger than ME. So what else do i have to say but hey eat the humble pie and just do what people asked. And not forgetting what office peeps call me - Addy-JIE!! Hows that!!!

Anyway...again NO point to this blog. Just rambling on my antics and trying to think the basis of my blog. Hahah...guess i am escaping to blog rather than thinking of the latest promo or latest marketing strategy i want to hit the suckers out there. Hurhur...oops did i just type that!? No no truly LOREAL products are great. So far all i have tried...least the CPD side...okie. For the price we pay...good quality stuff. Who says everything got to be branded.

Shucks...tick tick tick. I need to squeeze some creative juices out! Arrrgh. Oh well..guess blogging also is a form of triggering creative juices. lalalalaa....

Oh yes another topic been at the back of my mind. Being PREGGERS!! Enough of the preggers leh!! Everywhere i go and peeps i know are becoming preggers and all they YAK NON STOP ARE BABIES here, there, EVERYWHERE! Gosh... why why WHY are people in a hurry to be preggers after they get married?! is there all to it after married?! Popping a kid and lalalala... i don't think so, right?! K fine what do i know! I am not even close to being pregger!!! (to anyone reading this...and if YOU ARE a pregger, pls don't take this any other way!! I am not SLAMMING preggers! just voicing out an inner opinion which had been bugging me!) Oh back to my paragraph point, recently i met Summer (one of my fren from OMD last time. She got married and left for Sweden with her hubby. 1 year later, out comes beautiful Angel). It is amazing how much she had changed and how her whole life perspective just changed coz she got a little girl. She and her hubby used to be party animals, and now all she does in Sweden is cooking...cleaning after her girl....cleaning ....basically a HOUSEWIFE!!! gosh how is that possible.... anyways...childish thought alert on THAT!

FINE secretly i do try to do a mental picture of me ...V ...and a baby! Guess what - mind draws BLANK! hurhur...guess u can't do mental picture, except to have the real thing!! heeeee

K Shit ...better go back to my A&P matters! break long enough!!!!

that's all folks!! till the next burst of inspiration for this poor blog!!

Addy's Love language

2010-06-06T04:50:00.001-07:00

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Words of Affirmation

My Detailed Results:
Words of Affirmation:	9
Quality Time:	8
Acts of Service:	6
Physical Touch:	5
Receiving Gifts:	2

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

Take the Quiz!
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The Real Honeymoon bliss to Europe!

2010-05-12T07:58:00.000-07:00

Wow! sooooo fast been a month since i am back to this bleargh place called Singapore. Wish i am back in Switzerland enjoying the beautiful snow and cold cold weather.

Where do i start? Am sooooo happy my dear V had decided to bless me with this trip, its almost the trip that will never happen. We had always talk about it but never really put our mind to it. Coz you know Europe do not come cheap. So viola... after V's bonus, he went to book the tour package from Dynasty.

Initial take was to live dangerously and go F&E. But after checking and planning decided to screw it and just go with the tour. I thought tour packages will be hectic and unexciting. BUT we were pleasantly surprised with our tour. The peeps were great and our tour guide - Mr David Soh is indeed one of a kind. All in all we had our fair share of fun and WOEs!!!

As you can see from below, it seems jam packed but it was really enjoyable. The bestest time we had were in Switzerland. The image of snow falling and me tasting snow, it was truly amazing. Plus we had a Swiss Alps mountain spa, its totally cool. Imagine the cold air surrounding you and you are almost half naked in the midst of the snow mountains. How cool is that.

Though the trip did end on a sad note but i guess i just have to really truly remember each and every moments. Well put it plainly ...our Rome hotel room was burgled into on the last night of the tour. So we lost our cash (lucky NOT the passports) + my beloved camera containing 2500 pictures. Well thinking about it which is worst, us sleeping through the entire episode or you would rather wake up and face the burglers (risking that the burglers might have guns or knife).

I don't know. But am sure glad to have found some kool and like-minded tourmates. And now we are planning for our next adventure (though we do have a BIGGER adventure - like having kids). Oh well shall see how it goes. Be natural right....if it happens it happens...

Oh well almost a month...you can go check out my facebook and see whatever pictures that i could gather from other tourmates cameras. Guess thats all i can say to Europe. Perhaps least that what V promised - we shall go there AGAIN!!! Maybe minus ROME. heheeeee

k that's it for now. till the next post...hopefully soooooon.....

Attached is a copy of our Europe itinerary - France-> Switzerland-> Italy trip.

FRANCE
Paris
Arc De Triomphe
Place de La Concorde
Garnier Opera House
Champs Elysees
Eiffel Tower (2nd level)
The Invalides

SWITZERLAND
Geneva
Jet d’Eau
Flower Clock
Old Town
English Gardens
United Nations Palace
Headquarters of Red Cross and Crescent
Lake Geneva Region
Chateau Chillon, Montreux
Lavey-les-Bains Mineral Spa

Zermatt
Historical wooden houses on stilts
View of Matterhorn
Matterhorn Glacier Paradise
Ride Europe’s highest cable car

Berne
Bear Pits
Medieval Shopping Arcades
Astronomical Clock
Prison Tower
Aare River
Baroque Fountains

Interlaken
City Orientation
Swiss Fondue Dinner (Cheese, Meat & Chocolate)

Lucerne
Medieval Old Town
Chapel Bridge
Lion Monument

ITALY
Milan
Galleria Vittorio Emmanuelle II
Duomo
Piazza del Duomo
Leonardo Da Vinci Monument
La Scala Opera House
Sforza Castle

Venice
Private water taxi
St Mark’s Basilica
St Mark’s Square
Doges’ Palace
Clock Tower
Bridge of Sighs
Rialto Bridge
Venetian Glass Blowing Factory

Pisa
Leaning Tower of Pisa
Baptistery
Duomo
Monumental Cemetery
Square of Miracles

Florence
Piazza Michelangelo
Palazza Vecchio
Vecchio Bridge
Piazza della Signoria
Duomo
Giotto’s Bell Tower
Door of Paradise
Florentine Steak Dinner with Chianti Wine

Rome
Colosseum
Roman Forum
Vittorio Emmanuelle II Monument
Trevi Fountain
Spanish Steps
Castle of Angels
Designer Outlet Shopping

Vatican City

St Peter’s Basilica
St Peter’s Square

My CNY is BURNT and i am feeling miserable!

2010-02-05T09:53:00.001-08:00

Ok i need to rant and rave!

Just got news that V's grandpa passed away. i know i am probably being super selfish BUT BUT it is CNY in 1 week time! I have made all grand plans to totally pamper myself this weekend after that dreaded JMA meeting. all these are going down the drain all becos of THIS!!!

arrghhh...Why am i feeling angst about this whole thing? Just sian that suddenly all plans that i have for CNY are gone. no more merry making...no more visiting Pontian which i only get to go like once a year. I can't see my cuz though i am guess they prob do not miss me that much. and sian coz i feel like going MUAR is like going to prison!!! The god forsaken place!!!

Even though the place is done up very nicely but just can't help feeling dreadful and utterly sick of spending 3hrs driving up to that ulu place away from SG.

Oh well ...thats my burst of anger! needed an avenue to air my grievances. *sobs

Aww...You Are Pregnant vs WAT YOU ARE Pregnant?

2009-11-02T08:14:00.000-08:00

Haha...as i type this blog i looked at the title that seems quite funny. And NO I AM NOT PREGNANT!

Just my random thoughts after meeting another gf of mine that got pregnant shortly after wedding (which was around the same time as me).

Wedding was a time where everyone rejoice over YES finally getting hitched...finally settling down. Next in line for questioning will be when is the baby .... any plans??

I think that is a very rude question. What do you think? It is short of asking hey when are you having SEX? Least that is my thought. I mean yes the person could be asking out of concern but seriously we will have a baby when we feel like it. And people still wonder how come there are miscarriages during the first trimester. It is all these pressure!!!

Back to my post title, comparing the 2 forms of exclamation. You can probably guess what is my usual reaction. Who decides that you are ready for motherhood or parenthood? How do you know what kind of values your kids should inherit? What if you are a lousy parent? Your kids are the copies of you and your hubby. So if they turned out like crap, it says alot about the parents. The complications that come with having kids...

K i think i am just being negative. Who knows pop next comes my own baby! Would i be sitting here typing away about the negativity of kids or perhaps you will see my gushing about my soon to be born BB!

Oh well...a thought nevertheless that seems to be in my mind but hey ...who knows... ;P

Back to my marketing plan! :(

Can't think of a title! :(

2009-08-17T22:54:00.000-07:00

Woww....talk about lagging. Guilty as charged. Been busy with work (no excuse)...with family (no excuse since still babyless)....can't think of anything else.

BIG sigh...guess everyone is caught up in something. From work to family to friends to religion... who to say grown ups have it easy. I don't think so. I am grappling with the growing up phase everyday.

Since my last post, i don't even know where to start updating. I read a book about waking up one morning and have 3 years taken off your memory. In between 3 years, she woke up a brand new person, has a great career and is married to a millionaire! well i don't relished having 3 years of my memory wiped out, but sometimes just sometimes i wish i get that.

Work had consumed me and i HATE it. I hate having to pretend that everything is ok. I HATE having to make small talk about something i have no friggin clue about. I HATE having to think of witty statements all the time. I HATE no able to spend time doing things i LIKE/ ENJOY! I HATE it when people start asking me when is my turn to have BB!!! I HATE so much things... why am i even here.

K i think the above just sounded suicidal?? haha.. k i am still sane ...not loony...haiz...wish i don't have to be here.

I wish to stay forever in this state of inertia!? is it wrong to think this way!!!

Anyhow i just came back from HK....and of coz welcoming my new niece- SOPHIE TAN JIA XUAN! ta daaa

First 2009 post

2009-01-14T10:00:00.000-08:00

Wah lau eh...shucks forgot about the NY post and all. Geez and in a flash 14 days had passed. Wow 2008 had been exciting for me, and YES 2009 is going to be another tougher and yet EXCITING year.

Some reflections thinking back about 2008. Some happiness...some regretable moments...but it was alright i reckon. Took a big step - got baptise ...got MARRIED!

Life after marrieed...alot of tolerance needed. Though the feeling is nice, BUT geeez...sometimes i really need my ME time. THe time to just sit there...not care about the chores...care about the time ticking away....not caring about just anything. Not saying that V do not take care of me...but the thing is he TAKES such good care of me that i feel guilty at times.

Come 2009, one of my inner resolution is to be a better wifey to V coz he had been the sweetest hubby to me. Yes he ain't PERFECT but well he is say almost there.

Leaving PHD was another one of the major moments in 2008. Something which i thought i will never do. As much as things were NOT getting any better, i was just telling myself to just hang on. With me just getting married, i do need to have a more stable life. Not just L`Oreal can give me that. But i guess it is something i have to challenge myself. STEP OUT!!!

I reflect upon myself ...about Addy being Addy. What will you describe about me? I think i blogged about this before. But somehow it creeps back to me on this night. Like am i aloof? Am i fake and whiny? Am i stupid and slow? so many AM Is??? Who am I?

2.10am. Guess shall stop. Maybe i will blog tomorrow again. somemore pent up thoughts in me! Yawnz....

OMG - Memories of my wedding!!

2008-12-17T07:27:00.000-08:00

my Ad photos are FINALLY out. Yes ...YAWNZ... like sooo long hor! Yah me been bz...obviously with the new job and all.

Gosh looking back ...flashback to that DAY!!! So much more i could have done to make it better. hiak... well anyhow...bygones!

anyway...shall not upload coz quite big. But do check out Derrick Ong (MY AD PG) blog for some of my 'better' photos!!

Really thanks to this very talented guy who helped me out muchie on that Day! Worth it investment indeed. :)

K enuff said... http://derrickong76.livejournal.com/

BIG MOVE...Next Stop - Loreal!

2008-11-29T11:49:00.000-08:00

As you all had probably guessed from my last post that i am indeed leaving PHD after 2.5 years - making it a total of 4.5 years worth of media experience. And wow ...wat a ride it had been. *points to my nick.

YES finally after going through a big detour i finally landed in a marketing job which ain't that shabby as i thought. Though if given a choice, i would love to work in HASBRO!!! But then again this opportunity just kind of presented itself. So yes decided to grab it and worry about things later.

I have been blessed and i Truly thank God for that. I am just looking forward to this new job with a loads of excitement and a tad of worry. I mean it is a fresh start nevertheless, i don't know what will be coming. Worry if i can fit in, and what if colleagues can't stand me or my loudness?? But i believe by faith i can do it, for then i surely will do it.

Yes... i can!

Alright...quite late liao or should i say early in the morning. ...till my next post!

Venturing into new and better horizons

2008-11-08T10:05:00.000-08:00

Addy is happy.

Happy to be Mrs Ng

Happy that Vincent is my bestest friend and hubby

Happy that V is there to share the dreaded chores!

Happy to be surrounded by real friends.

Happy to be in love and be favoured by people.

Happy in VNA love nest

Happy that wedding is finally over and i can start relaxing

Happy that I am going to move on to a new job very soon

Happy that God had shown me this job.

Happy to just say I am beginning to thank God for everything i own.... ;P

Whatever it is ...Am just happy and in bliss... ;P

Starry Starry Nite wedding jus zoom past in a flash!

2008-11-04T09:30:00.000-08:00

Introducing officially Mr and Mrs Ng. Been exactly 11 days since i am Mrs Ng, still feeling abit surreal. Now i wake up to see another guy beside me... get off early to go work... no longer nua ard but having to do household chores. But all these are worth it when i know there is someone to share the load. As much as i gripe and complain... V is always my number 1 fan. Always willing to do the chores and sometimes help me pick this and take that. kekeke... alrite maybe i do bully him a little bit. kekeke...oops...

Tracking back to the fateful D-day - 25 Oct. Can't say much except that day zoom past before i can take a step back and reflect what i need to do. After awhile i was feeling abit numb, following what i had planned. I was tired...least my eyes which weigh a ton after putting on that heaps of eyelash to OPEN my very sleeeeeepy eyes.

Thanks to my dearest sistas. They were the bestest man. I could not have asked for a better group to help me out. I mean it was like sometime ago when we were planning for U2T... heee... geez i still remember that. Dohz... anyhow Janice was superb...was abit hesistant to put her as the main person coz i know how tired she was in terms of taking care of events. I mean its like her full time job. Nevertheless she was great and she made sure everything flowed despite this 'bride-zilla' here. Not to mention the rest of sistas were no good, they made the prettiest bunch...just go facebook and check them out. :)

alrite...zzz time...will update again with some photos. yawnzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Signing off....Mrs Ng once again! ;P

OMG....D-DAY!!!

2008-10-24T09:54:00.000-07:00

25 OCT. Super duper nervous... dammit. Still trying hard to memorise the vows.

Am almost there. K trial run here...

1st section
I, Adeline Tan take you - Vincent Ng to be my wedded husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, to love & to cherish & to obey for as long we both shall live- according to God's holy ordinance, & thereto I give you all my love.

2nd section
With this ring i wed you. It is a token of the vows i made to you. With it i will myself and all my worldy goods endowed to you- in sight of God, the father, the son & the holy spirit. \

OMG...k ...sorted.

so scareeeee another few hours time. 12 hrs later from now half day be gone. And imagine tmrw this night it will be my first night like really really no turning back Mrs Ng liao! Gosh...soooo excited sooooo nervous.

I pray for good weather and favors from all people involed directly or indirectly to VNA wedding. Amen.

OOkie doks...Miss Adeline Tan signing off. Be back as Mrs Ng in another 24 hrs time! woohoooo....

I hope i had done a good job trying to plan our dream wedding. :)

thanks everyone... REALLY!!!!

to meen - thanks for the lovely flowers...and gifts. Very much appreciated. :)

Countdown - 4 days more...

2008-10-21T00:00:00.000-07:00

Wow...so fast after 1 year in planning. Finally this Saturday it will be the final showdown. Been MIA-ing on my blogging coz i dunno where to start updating everyone on my status. Like my previous blog where i mentioned i was bride from hell aka bride-zilla! I thank V for putting me in my place and not expect the mountains.

Yes there will be hiccups and letdowns along the way. Nothing is ever that smooth, but whether people share it or not...really not up to us. We can only do what we can.

Oh well having said that. Photos are out or at least some of it are on FACEBOOK, so go check it out. Overall am very happy with it and glad i did not add $$$ to get more photos coz i dun even know what to do with it now.

Really want to thank my helpers/ jie meis who pulled together and guide me - the bride-zilla along with their points and advice. Really appreciate it. I feel very touch when i saw all my 'sistas' gathered at my mum's place discussing about my wedding day. i mean its really is very heart warming though i never really express it out. I mean aside from the tons of fishballs that i laid on the table for them to snack i really dunno how else to say - THANK YOU GIRLS. Hugs and Muakz...

Got my gowns sorted. Think my gowns are all quite boring. All bustier....would love to have halters but somehow all the halters i tried seem to make me look fatter or perhaps I AM FAT!! Shit...anyhow in the end the gowns i chose were the ones that made me feel like a princess! So i guess that is fine. I luv my evening dress which i tot very unique. Anyhow can see it on that day.

And yes planning a wedding is stressful but glad i had a theme. That makes everything fall into place alot easier.

Anyhow...enough ramblings...i still want to rattle on ...but thats for another post. Am off to find meself RIBBONS!!

Sign off - BRIDE-zilla!!!

宇宙小姐 MV...the music is quite sticky! i like

2008-10-02T10:21:00.000-07:00

Find more videos like this on www.truveo.com.

Starry Starry Nite - latest update

2008-09-26T11:45:00.000-07:00

Teaser shot - FYI - NOT MY AD GOWN

Wah kau... so much happenings since the last post. As we moved towards the last few weeks before that DAY, i swear machiem like sooooo many outstanding never do.

What i tot i had done, suddenly like still not done. Geez... k i am ramblings.

Think i am what most people will say THE BRIDE FROM HELL! I have like thousand and one things and i just keep thinking and thinking over in my puny little head. I really want to thank my dearest number 1 trouper & husband to be- Mr Vincent Ng.

He is always soooo supportive (or not) and always trying his bestest to accommodate my weird and darnest requests. Planning the wedding and handling the reno ain't the greatest combination and especially when the bride is highly strung.

Anyway ... had a chat with my pro VG - Mr alan lim shed alot of light on what else i have to do and have not done. Thanks to him who very kindly helping me with my photo montage. Must give him a good red packet.

shit... still zzzing late. Better get some shut eye!! Still counting down.... *gasp still in denial!! i am actually getting married ...walking down the aisle! is that happening to me??? dohz...

Just another 56 days more...

2008-08-27T10:17:00.000-07:00

Woah been a long while since my last post. MIA as usual. Bear with me for the lack of commitment to my blog. Geez... no time. Absolutely no time to sit down and sift through the 1001 thoughts in my mind, much less blog.

Well quick post. Theme for my wedding set after months of agonising over it. And the theme will be *drum rolls - "Starry Starry Nite"

Simple and yet what i always wanted. K not revealing too much details. But most of my evites are out, essentially it is more of a reminder note to my frens before the actual cards get sent to them.

Facing abit of problem now, seems like we have too many guests. Did not anticipate the overwhelming response. Haha.. well will work that out with V.

Reno wise so far so good. Key hackings that are required all done. Now is doing the real work of putting up the tiles and also starting capentry real soon. Both V and myself had been burning our weekends clearing reno items. Though we had our moment of squabbles and buay-songness but we survived. kekeke...

thats the quick update as of now...yawnz...

kudos...i finally finished my table arrangements. ;P

VNA lovenests reno started on 16 July 08

2008-07-21T10:39:00.000-07:00

Well our humble flat started reno last week on the 16th of July. Mmm...Glad that all the stuff are finalised and settled. Glad we got a nice contractor - Mr Mok who was able to work his magic figures closest to our budget.

Side consideration is that i have to think and visualise all the home decor by myself. Well no ID means do things yourself!! geeez...

anyway some piccies of my pre-reno flat. Know some of u been wanting to see see but i just din want to bring u all there coz it was old and bleargh...

anyways...here you go! Enjoy...

One step closer to getting my license

2008-07-21T09:43:00.000-07:00

I PASSED MY BASIC! Guess what after a failed attempt, i finally passed my basic theory today at 2025hrs. Was soooooo happy to see that PASSED word on my screen! So now i can go apply for my advance theory. Yay!

Well another step closer to driving our car!! bwahahaaa....

oh well..thats all! Sooo happy!! :)

Addy so discipline hor...

2008-07-07T19:37:00.000-07:00

Finally settle another item off my wedding to do list. Albums & Photos. So glad the process is over. So tiring and so hard to make the decisions.

WOW...I must say the effects of the photos quite good. I quite like it. And i must give myself a pat for being resilient enough to NOT add on additional photos. I kept telling myself, derrick will take care of the rest that i am not paying here.

So ta-dah...despite the urge to splurge i controlled myself. I MUST also say Dawn- Serene was fantastic. No pushy pushy kind...jus left me and V in one corner to decide. I like their service and of coz in the end she secretly blessed us with some free pics. Good on her.

Oh well...now i can only wait for the actual album to be out... the waiting begins.

Now reno is almost finalised so thats good. Hope we can start on 14th Jul and be in time before Oct begins. WOW...tick tick tick...time ticking... V's bro wedding over...now the focus is on MINE!!!

geeez...panicky when i think about it. :)

The post about Wonders and Ponders...

2008-07-01T09:47:00.000-07:00

Woah...yet again Addy MIA for awhile. Yawnz...same old same old. Wedding and reno... k lets save that for another post. Lets post about something else.

Well points to the title. Why this? Well past few weeks been bz catching this hot TVB drama called 'The Heart of Greed' or 溏心風暴. Alot of angst in the show and it was worth my sleepless nights.

Nevertheless I also managed to slot in V's bro wedding. Had a chance to see the Christian wedding. It was held at CHC Jurong hall and it was fairly simple. Nothing like romantic or like what i envisioned in the movies. Anyway abit panicky coz you have to friggin remember the VOWS!! No pastor gonna give you prompter to help you along. Gosh...feeeling stresss liao... Like the day ain't gonna be stress hor...

Shucks am moving away from my title. K check.

Essentially work been kind of a rut for me lately. I feel zero passion for my job, hate the blardee clients with their incessant requests. I feel that I am no longer significant in the company. IDM had been a great boss to me. He gives me alot of room to grow and believes in me. Honestly after Cheeks left the company, i feel so alone in the office. No one that i am seriously close to, that i can bitch to when PQB goes all wonky on everyone in the office.

PQB ain't no longer the fun loving person that i once knew. She is sooo cold that one can hardly stand being in the same room with her for more than 3 mins. Yesterday IDM told me a very grave news which as much as i tried to tell myself that meant NOTHING, it still hurt when i think about it. I realised that whatever i have done for the company means nothing.

KIA still thinks i slack at my job coz i talk loudly and laughs all the time. THis is beside the point that i am always being trashed for whatever emails that i send to the agency. Essentially he had been aiming at me and has absolutely NO REGARD for me. I am sad why does it had to come to this. What did i do wrong? I do not think i deserve this treatment? Haiz....

There is soooo much politics in this small place it is not funny. I hate this place, it had absolutely no warmth. Everyhing is just a facade, behind those smiles lies a jaded soul like me. Summer last day was today. Elvina left awhile back in Mar/ Apr. So basically no more close buddies left.

I question if there is a need for me go through all these pain. Is it worth it sacrificing my life for this.

I think NOT!

Enough said. sleep beckons. Till next blog...

oh as promised the mtv clip of Heart of greed.

Sex and the City as seen thru Addy's eyes

2008-06-14T12:00:00.000-07:00

YES! The movie – Sex and the City! The mecca drama for all WOMAN ever existed. So much happiness and tears had been shed by me over the love of the drama till the current movie. Seems like ages ago...

The movie was very long (2.5hrs) though I could hardly feel it. I could almost sense a longing from every woman in the cinema to all parts of the movie. Every scene that was roll out was met with a sigh or an ‘aww’. I was immersing myself in the movie, trying to remember that particular favourite dress or favourite words. One favourite of mine is the scene where Carrie and Big were in bed and Carrie was reading this book – Love Letters from Great Men by Walt Whitman. There was this particular poem that Carrie read out to BIG which at the end BIG whispered the last 3 lines of the poem to Carrie’s ear. It was the MOST touching words I think anyone husband can actually say to his wife-to-be.

Anyway I managed to extract that same poem which I will paste here for you all to see.

Moving on. Watching SATC always allow me that few minutes of indulgence in the fact of the simple closeness with people from friends to love ones. Something that seems so easy and attainable seems so hard to achieve in reality. I guess that’s why I can have the briefest moment of indulgence thinking I can achieve that closeness.

This movie is definitely about L O V E – finding love, keeping love, loosing love, enjoying love & rekindling love. So much love that is available all over, I would like to think I have found some LOVE for myself. When one finds love, emotions take over. Loose the rationale and just follow your heart.

Another connection I felt was the whole wedding preps part, no doubt I don’t have the mega budget or the designer gowns or THE JILT AT ALTAR bit (touchwood of that happening). The bit about a wedding between the couple ONLY and not about anyone else. Of coz that is Hollywood, one says coz in the movie you do not see the couple’ family members. Its almost like they don’t exist. Hahaha…

K just hit me. Perhaps why the show is sooo nice coz they take out parents. What do you think? Parents change the equation. Well anyway just one of my musings at 3.30am on a Sunday morning typing away on my lappie in bed! Yawnz…

As promised the letter -

Letter 3

Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us -

I can live only wholly with you or not at all -

Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits -

Yes, unhappily it must be so -

You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never -

Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves.

And yet my life in V is now a wretched life -

Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men -

At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection?

My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once -

Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together -

Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell.

Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine

ever mine

ever ours

Celeb of the moment - Wu Zun

2008-06-01T11:00:00.000-07:00

K ..hitting 30 next year is a tad sad i know. Going ga-ga over stars is another sad thing. Lately i watch this 'au xiang ju' aka taiwan idol drama called - Hua Yang Shao Nian Shao Nu. I was totally WOW over by WU ZUN!!! GOsh ...can anyone be cuter than him. K perhaps aside from Kdrama hunks. But gosh have you seen this guy yet.

He is soooo hot. k i know i am gushing. but anyway check out this MV of his piccies. Hahah... found off Youtube. I know no one is perfect. So he ain't exactly a great singer though he is in the group Fahrenheit (wat a name rite).

But nvmd....Thought i put it on my blog too. Just to show aside from the boring wedding and reno preps. What else are occupying my thoughts. Can see V rolling his eyes now!! hiak hiak...

Enjoy

蘇打綠小情歌 KTV

2008-06-01T10:56:00.000-07:00

This is the song of the moment. I know it ain't like the latest song but hey the music is nice. Oh am stilltrying to determine if the singer is guy or ger coz the voice is sooo high pitch leh!

Oh well..have a listen.

Post PS blog about Happy Darker Addy

2008-05-29T08:26:00.000-07:00

WOW...finally the 2 tiring but great days are over. Well all shots are now safely in Henry's PC, so now till early July it is before we know how the piccies turn out.

Gosh have never been so tired in my entire life. But i must say despite my earlier reservations, the shoot was very fun. The frequent facebook sessions with my team helped alot. Photographer said i was good at posing whereas my dear V had a tad of prob!! But i must commend him for the hardwork too, especially at jumping, lifting, and basically doing all weird shots with me. I love you my dear!!!

Well now one more thing down. Tons of other things to follow. Shall post a few teasers pics on facebook. See how the piccies turn out come July... k

what a wonderful experience...glad we went through that!!! ^_^

k ...i think i need to rest. Very tired...and the crap thing is I HAVE TO WORK tmrw!!!! :(

The Blog post about Nervous Addy

2008-05-26T10:33:00.000-07:00

Well...been trying to blog but am having this block in my mind. Too many things on my mind just can't seem to translate into words.

Anyway at this late night when i am supposed to be getting my beauty zzz, my mind is whirling from tons of things. It can't seem to stop and i can't get to zzz. So decided to blog.

Basically I am nervous. I am thinking WAY too much for my own good. You probably can guess if you have been following my blog. I am gonna be taking my wedding photo shoot this Wednesday with V of coz. And i am frantic coz i am worried we maybe be too stiff and pics turn out horrendous. Worried what if the weather is bad and i can't have a niceeeee sunset shot that is romantic. Worried what if all that i had in my mind can't be translate into actual photos. Worried what if i have puffy eyes or sudden outbreak. Basically whatever i can worry i WILL worry. V on the other hand seem to be chill about it, typical man as usual.

I went for my gown fitting about 2 weeks ago. Picked out 5 pieces of dresses - 1 Outdoor gown, 2 indoor gowns & 2 evening gowns. I dunno if those were the best choices coz it was over within the hour. Reason could be coz we were too hungry when we went choosing, so basically just want to get it over and done with. WHICH COULD BE A POTENTIALLY BAD THING!!! Anyways what done can't be undone. I can only wait till this Wed & Thurs when the final alterations are done to find out if i had made a good choice.

I think i look best in halters as the top i got are mainly that kind. But surprisingly i had NEVER tried toga look, yet my outdoor gown is a off-shoulder slim gown with a long train off my shoulder that will be nice if there is wind to blow it. kekeke...least in my mind thats how i envision it to be. I picked 1x RED GOWN & 1x YELLOW GOWN for my evening gown selections. Weird choice for yellow right. I mean RED is a given since i always like red (though Emerald green is my new fav colour). YELLOW is abit of an off colour since i ain't too BIG on yellow. But the yellow dress look nice on me. Least thats what i thought.

MMmmm...you probably be wondering how come all talk and no pics. SOrry to say yours truly FORGOT to take pics in the midst of all the excitment during my gown trying. THoughi must CREDIT my faithful videographer -mr A. LIM who went with us to video down the trying process. He will be joining my outdoor shoot to take down the process too. That will make up my montage during my AD. HIak....oops too much details... ;P

Oh oh...before i forget - THANKS TO TRISH! Who took time off her bz schedule to go with us to JB...she is my maid of honor. :)

K...What else have i missed in the midst of this update?? mmm...Roughly my theme is Red & Stars since these are my fav. Still trying to see how i can merge. So bz bz researching on that.

So while i am taking care of wedding matters, my dear hubby is bz with reno. I already offered my objective views on how the house should be renovated so he will settle the final budget and details. :) Pray hard we will get someone who can fit into our budget.

Sound like Addy been real busy right. Geeez. I never thought i myself will be going through this. I used to think WHY should i subject myself to the endless decisions from wedding venues to wedding dinner to wedding photos. There are girls who just say why the FUSS and to some girls FUSS is definite worth it. 2 sides of a coin but such vaste difference for each i feel. I want to have it simple BUT somehow it is this ONE chance you get. So it is either you make it simple or you make it real memorable that you can look back say 50 years ago with your grandkids with pride. K i think that is way too much thinking there. Geez grand kids. WAKE UP ADDY!!!

Oh well whatever it is...it is a choice. And i made that choice. I get that ONE chance to look real pretty i deserve it. So if other girls smirk at me...let them be. TO EACH HER OWN!!

WAIT- DISCLAIMER-> in case whoever is reading is REALLY reading too much to this blog. Dun need to read in between the lines. There isn't any hidden agenda. Just my random thoughts through random conversations... TRULY....

k i think i had written too much. Yawnz...beauty zzz coming... one more day nearer to my photoshoot. Wish me BEAUTIFUL!!

Cute icons i found...

2008-05-24T20:15:00.000-07:00

glitter-graphics.com

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This is quite funny... ginny, ron, harry & hermonie

K ...blog later!! hiak

Some colour to my boring life! Piccies time!

2008-05-16T00:23:00.000-07:00

Been seeing a tad dull blog lately. Well coz technically aside from wedding and reno, nothing else occupy my time! As much as i am trying to ENJOY the process just feel abit drain. Maybe its my job, somemore with soooo much negative vibes. Abit hard to find the fire within...

Oh well shall blog again when i get the time. but some piccies from Adeline koh Wedding (YES she got everything settled way faster than me) & also a Zouk party.

Thats all for now....

GF, PS, reno & more reno- Mountain of Debts

2008-05-08T23:10:00.000-07:00

Woah lapse in writing again. Crap since V is back every weekend busy with either reno or got something to do. I had not got chance to shop and give myself some ME TIME!!! i need ME TIME...

Been busy talking to IDs and contractors for our house reno. We slated for $30k reno but based on what we want, looking almost $50k lor. Shucks man! So friggin expensive. Not helping when i start thinking about wedding cost also. Gosh overwhelming mountain of debts.

Oh well finalising wedding items along the way. Am gonna go for gown fitting (GF) this Sunday, photo shoot (PS) on May 28 & 29. So gonna be a jam packed MAY for me. Furthermore my bro getting married on 18th May. So loads and loads of things happening.

So far been feeling a tad depressed over the way my parents prepared for my bro wedding. From the renovating the 'xing fang' to many other things. Basically my bro and wife will not be staying in SG after they got married. BUt for some strange reason my mum insisted that she give up her MASTERBED room for my bro 'xing fang'. Reason simply because his wife entourage is very big, so my mum kind of do not want to loose face for using my bro miserable small room as 'xing fang'. Oh well so now that my bro is back, my parents got no where to zzz. My room is in haywires coz all my tables are shifted to another room. Haiz...can't even begin to describe. But suddenly just feel a sense of crapiness towards my family.

oh well.. damm...blog later...

Busy busy Addy

2008-04-28T09:31:00.000-07:00

Woah...long long time since my last post. So much been happening, also don't know where to start updating.

lets see..Shall write whichever comes to my mind....

V been back almost a month. So far been great, and i have never been happier knowing he is just in another corner of Singapore and not half way in KL. Though it was a major decision to come back, taking a risk with the new company and adapting to SG way of life again. But i think he is coping. But of coz, when the new company can allow him to buy his dream car. Yes in the midst of our wedding preps and reno, he could actually squeeze in a car. 2nd car nonetheless, and is a swanky LEXUS IS200. I totally like that car. So nice and is a rare sunroof LEXUS! Well dear V actually posted the pics up in his facebook. Else can go to this link and see the car.

http://www.sgcarmart.com/main/info-20YJEnG-1317.html

Wedding preps...Date of my photoshoot confirmed - 28 & 29 of May. Desperately trying to loose weight. Cutting down carbs, eat less junk. Hope to just drink soup...but so far not working. Will continue that. Currently the whole family is actually bz with my bro upcoming wedding on 18th May 08. I am panicking coz i have absolutely NOTHING to wear. Crap...

Since V been back, we have been actively sourcing for IDs/ contractors. No joke what a pain, setting up meetings and comparing quotes. Basically still not feel that the contractor is the right one for us. So still keeping that thought in our prayers and hope we find the right one soon. WE bought a bed though which is a strange item to buy when we have not even finalised reno stuff. But hey that us. We were at an exhibition and were swayed over by Slumberland. Initially we wanted Sealy which was apparently a premium bed used in hotels. Price also reflects that. So after comparing, Slumberland was the next best option compared to local ching chiong brands.

Feel quite bad that i had missed meeting the girlies, but i reckon the girlies are also busy. I did manage to meet iris and company on April fool's day. Sadly did not take any piccies but was soooo nice meeting them. Missed chatting to them and seem so distant sometimes. I hardly know what they are talking at times... haiz... still they are a gem lah...least we still make an effort lah. I mean thinking the times from the very beginning when we started working together till now as we start settling down with our special halfs. Definitely treasure that...

k think i am veering off what i want to say coz i am dozing off...literally...tired... shall blog again hopefully soooooooon...

check back laterzzzz

Beginning of my 29th year....

2008-03-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

woah...almost the end of my fav birthday month. This month been fast fast as usual, before i know it - Hit 29 already.

Gosh ...as one gets older no more fancy celebrations and presies. Having celebrations and presies almost seem like a mockery of my age. Geeez... Well nevertheless it is an excuse to meet with frens and just catch up.

Since hardly anyone got anytime for anything these days except for birthdays. Even birthday meeting seem to take forever to organise. Haiz...gets lonelier as one age... people get more fake. Don't know when can one ever really trusts anyone?? K thats the cynical Addy talking. Dun mind me... its Sunday...i tend to get a little depressed!

My only trooper- V always there supporting me. I thank him for that. This 29th birthday he was sweet enough to bear the horrible causeway jam and come Sg to spend a simple day with me. Technically we had celebrated my bday with a 200RM dinner in KL. So still that thought was sweeet.

Next Satty will be me fulfilling his bday wish - passing that damm basic theory test. Gosh proving harder than i thought. Damm hard trying to remember those signs. Got to admit old man... my memory ain't like 10 years ago... :(

Oh well ... Apr onwards i have a 3 months - 3 objectives to fulfill at work in order to get my promotion. Haiz... wondering if i shld strive that hard just for that miserable recognition. So what i strive as hard as i can, nothing seems to be able to please my friggin MD. Honestly i swear all her talk abt G is really bunch of crap. Coz honestly she does not practice what she preach. I am so sick of her being soooo full of herself. Everything is about her and the profit margin. Crap...k i am whining again.

Crap...depressed Sunday....arrghh...full stop.

The rush of reading.. that i missed

2008-03-18T07:28:00.000-07:00

Almost forgetting the rush of finishing a novel. Been months since i last touched a novel. Last book i remembered was Harry Potter.

Today i was on leave and i went to run some errands in town. After which i pop into Kino at taka to do some free reading. Guess what i decided to buy a romance novel to read whilst on my way home.

After kino, realised i do have somemore time to kill before time to head home. So arm with my romance novel i head down to kopibean for a drink. So there i was sipping my nice cuppa of tea latte and indulging my fantasies, feeling soooo very relax.

On a side note, i suddenly remember the joy i once felt when reading a nice romance novel, k maybe not just ROMANCE. The rush to know what happens in the end, almost akin to me watching my fav kdrama.

The tons of romance novels and kdramas had put all whimsical thoughts into my thick head. Sometimes my thoughts like to wander and i start drifting off dreaming of being swept off my feet. Thinking of the impossible... How wonderful it is to have the imagination being kept alive and that small portion of me still functioning normal.

Not to say that V ain't the perfect romantic husband. He is ...but alas he is only a normal human being AND we are just an ordinary average couple. We can't be romantic day in and out. hahaha...

hmm....enough babble for today... woah....ending march... end of my fav month! WHY - coz it is my birthday month. How exciting and boring as one grows older... shall save that whining for another post. ...

btw- i DID finish the book within a few hours... YAY! :P

Start of the busy year...

2008-02-27T10:06:00.000-08:00

Woah...finally the 15 days of feasting over. Time to head back to reality. Gosh work piling ...personal life so much stuff to settle. Quick checklist- WEDDING + RENO work...

RENO work. What a pain that is especially for newbies like me and V. Ain't funny lor. Worry kena 'KA' by the CON-tractors and claimed IDs. Last Satty me and V tried to take the first step in trying to ask around for quotes. Went to IMM since that were tons of furniture shops there. Basically it was a total futile trip as both of us hovered around the various shops not quite sure how to approach them. After awhile, we ended up just looking at furnitures and peering into the ID shops. Quite embarressing coz we really dunno what to ask? I mean what if they charge us for just some initial consultation?? Dunno lah... Start of my headache woes... Thank goodness V is coming back to Singapore soooon ...April to be exact. Whooooopeee

Errmm...on the other end...perhaps ain't that whooopeee! Well it is FANTASTIC he is coming back but but but i had gotten used to him not being around except during weekends. Used to doing things my own time own target...used to finding my own plans....doing my own things... Geeez...oh well AM sure in no time i will be more than accustomed to having him around. Well at some point i do have to get the thought that i AM MARRIED to V. So have to get used to US rather than he and me being individuals. Yes ....lalalalaa...getting used....

Next wedding Preps! Gosh YES HAVE TO GET MY BUTT MOVING!!! Need to get back to regime of slimming down. Am quite positive i put on weight though i had not weigh myself but hey they say pants the best gauge. Getting a tad tighter around the waist!!! So ain't funny... Work just got to take a back seat COZ YOURS TRULY GOT MY OWN WEDDING TO PREPARE!!!

One big headache. I need a maid of honor/ KEY COORDINATOR on 25th Oct 08. Been mulling over this for the super duper longest time. Who to ask? k ....awkward silence here...mmm...dunno what else to say moment.... Will make the final decision sooon....

Have to go to the bridal studio fix a date and go try some gowns. Abit excited about that. Picking THAT PERFECT gown. What will suit me...i pick the dress or you think dress pick me!! bwahahaah...k its 2.15am. think i am rambling nonsense....

need to hit the sack...yawnz.....blog soooooon....

Simple Yet Heartfelt Gift - From my hubby

2008-02-15T21:50:00.000-08:00

Feb 14 - a Day of celebrating Love from friends to couples. For me, sweetest gift i had got so far. No need to say, just watch this video. It was actually a powerpoint presentation that my hubby had done for me. Basically tracing our days together with some cheesy, mushy lines. But thank you hubby for saying those cheesy lines and for the effort. Especially scanning the austrialia pics since all were in hard copies.

Alrite...there was my Vday. ;)

CNY round the corner blog

2008-02-03T00:10:00.000-08:00

Wow so fast...after NY now it is Cny. I think it is a process of growing up where the mere mention of these festivities no longer ignite any sense of happiness within me, except for the mere respite from the hectic work life. For that i am thankful for such festivities.

No longer do i feel a need to rush around looking for CNY clothes... shoes... or whatever new things in order to usher in the new year. I buy things when i feel like it or when there is something nice and worth it. Well even buying is beginning to feel like a chore to me. So many friggin people jostling about getting to the fitting room is such a pain, then comes the paying part. Also need to wait and queue for my turn. But i think that is a SG problem, there is just no more space for the increasing population. Even there is, there is not enough time to educate these people about good manners. Honestly even the government feels the same way. haha...how sad.

Wish i can escape from Singapore and go to somewhere nice and stay there. Away from this crowded and polluted country, away from everyone caught up in their own lives...

Been reading blogs and seeing so many lovely piccies of my frens making a point to travel all over the world while they are still young. Yet yours truly had never really went beyond Japan or Australia? A world so vast and wide, can i ever really finished it? I doubt so...be glad to just see the piccies through internet. Northern lights...Alaska... Caribbean Sea....Tuscany.... Swiss Alps...Athens??? Wah....list is endless... How i dream and wonder.......

One more thing before i end. Me and V just got a Canon IXUS 75 Digicam for a steal @ $499. Freebies include 2x 2G memory card, 1x original Canon battery, 1x travel case, 1x leather pouch, 1x non-stick screen protector. Sooo happy ...now we can take piccies whenever we want to. Pity V ain't around.

alritey thats all ...till the next post... ;P

How can my post be boring...here are some pics of my fav places

Self Photoshoot at Haji Lane - Happening...

2008-02-01T01:06:00.000-08:00

This got to be the most boliao blog. Last night we had a mediacorp private drinks session at Bali Lane.

As the night drew to a close and we started leaving the place. Me, Russ & Eve decided to go down to Haji lane to wait for a cab thinking the main road be much faster. Much to our frustration, no cabs. So in the end me and Eve started calling cabs.

Dear Russ be the side started the whole snap happy. So here is the results of our im-promptu photoshoot at Haji Lane last nite. Trust me alot of people were giving the 3 of us weird stares during the whole 20 to 30 mins.

For somemore shots, pls check out my facebook. ;P

:)

the blog about nothing and everything...

2008-01-24T09:15:00.000-08:00

Woah...been awhile since my piccies post. Well nothing much been happening except dealing with crap clients at work and pigging out way too much.

New year new me, how easy to lip-service that. So easy to say the simple 4 words but takes loads of discipline to carry it out.

Oh heard that one of my colleague who just got married in Oct is actually pregnant for almost 3 months liao which means it almost one time home-run kind of pregnancy. What are the odds right? I mean here you are just done with the hassle of getting married and almost immediately more adjustments required to welcome another new life into your current new life? Woah...just that thought for me seems hard to swollow. Being a parent, no joke. Am i ready to embrace a new life other than Vincent? Just a random thought that struck my head. hiak

I wonder as one age do they distant themselves?? Juggling work, family, friends where does that leave 'ME' time? As friends start settling down and leading their own busy lives, what happened to the impromptu kopi gatherings and karaoke? As we all deal with our own miserable insecurities, what is left for us to grapple the tons of responsibilities. I wonder...

Oh past weeks been busy catching this romance kdrama called 'The Coffee Prince'. It is soooo nice can. some youtube videos for your pleasure. I am totally in the reel world of Coffee Prince.... dreaming dreaming..... for that like-minded someone...

Langkawi trip in - 19 to 21 Dec

2008-01-14T08:08:00.000-08:00

Hey hey...am on the roll here.

Recent trip to KL where my darling hubby brought me to Langkawi via Air Asia since i had mentioned many times that i had not been on a plane for the longest time. Wow soooo sweet of him...

Anyway the trip was good for us since i had never been to Langkawi. Something different. Simple serene place, very laid back i thought.

Not much to say except look at the piccies. Taken by my trusted hp! Kool eh... :)

Welcoming Mr and Mrs Bernard TAN

2008-01-14T07:54:00.000-08:00

Wow...My bro officially got married on Satty to his gf (my DA-SAO)!!! WOw to some of my closer friends will know how just a few years ago i was desperately promoting my bro as he was still a swinging bachelor.

But fate and love work in amazing ways, before you know it in the space of 2.5 years, he got himeself a loving wife. Though i do not know my Da-Sao that well yet, but she seems an ok chick! My age and earning big bucks like my bro.

heee... well anyway ROM was the same place - My sis condo. Me and V felt like deja-vu all over again! Was alrite event except most guests seem pretty old compared to mine! hahah...guess thats when age gap come into play.

kekeke...well anyway din take much pics except these with my BRAND NEW CANON IXUS 75!! ooooh...heheh

k enjoy...

the online KTV post

2008-01-14T07:24:00.000-08:00

Ok..What have I been up to lately? I have been searching Youtube for latest karaoke songs that i can learn. And again Youtube never ceases to amaze me on the amount of junk one can find.

This post shall be dedicated to some of the songs that i am addicted to... and had been practising hard. :)

Enjoy...

OMG- It had been a WEEK into 2008!!!

2008-01-07T05:00:00.000-08:00

Drums PLS! Usual the very first blog of the year. Gosh been that many years...almost 29 years liao. As for this blog, its been almost 3 years since the first post in August. How i had grown through the 3 years, can almost see the ADULT click somewhere in the midst of all the blogs that i had written. Sound soooooo old can... haiz...

Just looking at 2007 blogs, friendster & facebook, i must say it was an eventful year. Save for the fact that i GOT PROPOSED & MARRIED, other things like work, new friends, start to exercise routine. With the actual date of the wedding set for 25 Oct 2008, alot more exciting things to come.

It is with a mixture of excitment and dread that i am anticipating the wedding preps. Not to mention we will also need to start thinking about renovating 'VNA humble abode'. So much things that i WANT but only so much things budget will allow. So decisions decisions...

2007 saw me struggling with work and also friends. I realised due to work, it had driven my friends away. I feel cut-off from my frens (sometimes), sometimes i totally hate work. Everything irritates the hell out of me (am sure its not just ME, tyvm). I sincerely wish 2008 will allow me to catch up more with frens and to treasure these fragile relationships.

2007 saw most of my gfs kena proposed and also getting pregnant. I am definitely happy for them. Even my bro also getting married. Can you believe it? YES MY NERDY BRO- Bernard Tan. Well i definitely wish them the bestest... How cool is that? :)

Shall not named my resolutions yet since i had not made any... But i have to go get a friggin license. can anyone who read this constantly remind me especially when you see me? So that i get a moving on this. V will be very very happy.

Oh one more thing, 2007 saw me and V hitting another year with our relationship and yet able to still stay loving. This is beside the point he is not even in SG. I Love him for faithfully taking the time to come back to SG to be with me. From getting our flat till hunting for the perfect venue, he always make a point to come back to ME. THATS WHY HE IS MY HUBBY!!! Coz as what he always says - I LOVE YOU!

Think this post is mushy as it is... will post some piccies up soon. Alternatively can check out my facebook for the piccies. :)

MERRY NEW YEAR to all my faithful readers, dunno who you are but do drop a comment or 2 whenever you can!

Pictures Pictures...MORE PICs!

2007-12-09T22:19:00.000-08:00

Some of the pictures i have been taking at some company pictures....

Adding some colour to my blog....

Venues Venues--- Addy in a dilemma!!

2007-12-09T19:53:00.000-08:00

The Beaufort- What i missed.

SCC - Outdoor ceremony

SCC Banquet - Unblock view too.. hmm

Raffles Marina - Banquet. Unblock room
Raffles Marina- Outdoor Lawn area

Woah..been a while since i written about anything. Well i have been busy. Usual frenziness to close the year well. Office life been a real bitch... not helping when the resentment towards management seems to be on the high side. Well thats work.

Personally i have also been trying to organise possible places i can hold my wedding next year. Gosh it is a nightmare since V ain't around half the time. Well no excuses but coordinating is SUCH pain i swear. Balancing good venues within budget ain't easy, wants and needs are also sooo hard.

Well since Chjimes ain't available, we wanted to confirm Beaufort aka THE SENTOSA. However final meeting with wedding planner made the whole meeting quite sucky. She was very unwilling to help and V says he din feel a connection with her. So not happy to let her earn the commission. So off we go again to recce 'OUTDOOR UNIQUE wedding venues!!'.

So last Satty, we went to Seletar Country club (SCC) and Raffles Marina (RM) to check it out. Both wedding planners are very nice and helpful. Hence am not torn between the two places. Will post some pics of the venue and my faithful readers can help me decide.

start of a glooomy week... :(

RM is slightly expensive BUT still affordable. Only difference is that i can have my march in via a private yacht. So it will be something different as compared to SCC. SCC is new to the wedding biz, but they are very accommadating in giving other perks.

So now very torn torn...here are the piccies of both venues!!

Life is so fragile to be wasted on petty overly sensitive people...

2007-12-03T08:18:00.000-08:00

this post is dedicated to Ian's Bro - Colin who passed away suddenly. I will be keeping him and his family in my prayers. Pray sincerely for strength and renewed faith that Colin is in His loving arms.

On another note, been feeling overly frustrated by things i heard at work. On one hand i feel like an ingrate, on the other hand i just want to go ahead and bitch abouy my work. Been almost 3 years since i had started in this industry. So much i had encountered that it actually felt alot longer than 3 years. Called me jaded or negative, i am sick of what i am doing. The endless pretence for my clients and even towards my own boss is stifling me.

Colleagues are really great but its the management that is getting to me. Only thing holding me back from moving on is fear of being labelled an ingrate. Ingrate for turning my back towards something that was fought on my behalf. Am i fated not to stay in a job for more than 1.5 years?? Whats wrong with me?

Recent spate of events leading to the frustration and disgust for the management. So hard to draw a line, when is she a friend & when is she a BOSS? To her perhaps there is a distinction, but to me she will always be the BOSS. WHY? Coz as boss she can be unreasonable and say whatever that she wants, she can clearly defend her favourites and write weird emails. Who am i to say otherwise? For i am just an executive, to HER its always either am too lazy or am just cruising. Nothing else matters.

Even a simple plate of chicken comments, she got angry and stomp off. Who had to eat the damm 2nd order of Chicken?? Whats wrong with HER? Had she gone wonkers? She had i am sure. The title had all gone to their head. So much so that it had cloud their sense of empathy for other people' suffering.

haiz..just another blog where i want to rant and rave... pls ignore if you do not get this... not for your understanding. Purely something i wrote to get it off my damm chest.

Frustrated Addy..urgh...

Whatsup with Addy?

2007-11-25T02:53:00.000-08:00

OMG… Nov 25 already. The year is drawing to a close. Been a LONG while since my last blog. Been feeling lazy and uninspired for the longest time, did not know what else to put on my blog.

Reading people’ blog seem so fun but my blog seem kind of dull. Does it mean I am dull? Is Addy DULL?? Will someone SAY NO TO THAT PLS!!

Oh well, the HAI are all finally officially married. Last one- Dearest SOH and Jansen finally tied the knot on 17 November 2007 at The Merchant Court. Nice simple affair with great buffet I must say. Ah Soh looked fabelicoious after the months of dieting and slimming massages. All is worth it when she wore the gown and looked so pretty. Well guess that’s why they say ALL BRIDES ARE SPECIAL AND BEAUTIFUL!!! I say we HAI ROCKS!!! Will go put up a pic of all our ROM pics once I get them.

Left with Lynette’s wedding which will be next year together with her wedding dinner which I think I probably missed it as it is too closed to my OWN wedding. WOW…imagine me saying that – MY OWN WEDDING!!! I mean I know I am officially married but to keep on telling myself that still seems surreal.

One more month to X’mas, I have to start my X’mas shopping real soon. This year will be very stretch for me as I have a lot MORE financial commitment. I AM A REAL GROWN UP with debts and commitments. Haiz… With wedding and renovations coming up in 2008, somehow I dread having to think how are we going to pay off everything.

Oh well, next wedding coming up is Hoon and Andrew on 15th Dec 07. We will be having her Hen’s nite on 8th Dec. That will be something to look forward to, afterwhich they will be zooming to Maldives for their honeymoon. Niceee eh…so happy for her. To finally find the man of her dreams and settling down.

I think I have written enough. Not too sure what else I have to write. Some pictures of my recent trip to KL where my darling hubby brought me to Port Dickson. Plus I also attended the wedding of Steven (V’s Australia mate).

Yawnz….

Just a random post...

2007-10-07T09:47:00.000-07:00

Wah… been awhile since I updated my blog. Least since my ROM on Sep 15. Firstly not that I was lazy but coz I had been plagued by sickness since my ROM. Yes you are right. Don’t know whether suay or lucky, after my ROM I kena swollen eyes, viral fever, basically sick like never before. Thank goodness all is over and I am finally on the road to recovery. My voice still abit nasal but otherwise I am all good.

Gosh, just attended 2 weddings this weekend. One is my dear ex-ibm colleague – Val & Henry, the other is my current colleague – Vivien & Vernon. So zun hor both Vs. Hahah….just some random similarities I noticed. So happy for my getting married friends.

Seeing them getting married and preparing for their own wedding set me thinking about my own. After my ROM, naturally the next step is to think of the actual wedding which I had already set on the date – Oct 25, 2008. Now am just dragging my feet to settle the venue. Why can’t I settle the damm venue I ask myself many times? Thought me and V had kind of settled for Chjimes, BUT BUT I still thought of a nice outdoor wedding after watching Chuck a and Larry the movie. The last part of the outdoor wedding and dance is the kind of wedding I like. Though how much can Singaporeans take such simple wedding is another question I don’t know how to answer.

I mean honestly sometimes I think venue and ambience can be superb but if your audience is not sporting then also can’t be helped. But nevertheless I think coz mine has no relatives, so I thought perhaps I can have it abit wild and different. I thought having couples dancing will be quite nice, perhaps even karaoke will be good (I mean tastefully done karaoke!). Oh well, how does one start preparing for a damm wedding? Like so much work, wish I can have mine in nice little Bali with close friends against a setting sun by the beach…. Guess that will be ultimate?? Yes/ No?? hahaha…

Well shall go ponder somemore about what I want and discuss with my hubby!!! By the way in case people been wondering, so how is married life? No difference to me coz my dear Vincent ain’t in Singapore. He is still working in KL, and YES he is exploring options to come back to his dear wifey in Singapore coz he can’t bear to be away from me!!! Bwahahaah… dohz…

K …enough crap for tonite… till the next post… …

Introducing Mr & Mrs Ng..Goodbye Miss Tan

2007-09-16T03:41:00.000-07:00

Wow...Thank YOU all my friends and buddies. Can't thank you all enough for taking time to come for our very simple ROM at my sis place (even in the midst of the WRONG address). OOps..i know. My sincere apologies.

Nevertheless the DAY finally arrived - September 15, 2007. Though a little bit of worrying initially when it rained, the sun finally peeked through around 12noon. Guests arrived slowly but surely due to my little hiccup on the address.

(Honestly i thought people will usually research in advance on how to get to a place, NO MEH??) Anyway i know...it was my BIG BOO BOO.

The simple decor was nice enough with my korean music in the background. Am contended and happy that so many people came by to share our joy.

Here are some piccies i thought i shall post for your enjoyment... ;P

2 MORE DAYs- Sep 15

2007-09-12T09:04:00.000-07:00

Wow...last blog before Sep 15 i think.

This should be what the past few months prep lead to. Even as much as i keep telling myself that this is a SIMPLE ROM. Somehow still there will be bouts of nervousness and even panic when you have so many friends that just casually asked you 'So how- all SET?'

Honestly i don't know what to say except whatever i can prepare i had done it. The rest of play by ear on day itself. Leave onto HIS loving hands to bless us with whatever we would have wanted.

Collected the certs and also the dress today. Open my house too. So much things that signify more responsibilities and the venture towards the next phase of my life. We are all creatures of habit, to some unknown could be adventurous, to other unknown could be scary. I do not know what future holds for me, but i know for sure there is a mate and friend walking side by side with me.

Last blog as Miss Tan. Not quite sure what is the feeling as yet, but definitely excited and happy. A step that took us a long 7 years to finally commit.

What i would do during the actual ceremony next year? Will i cry since everyone says actual ceremony is very emotional? I am a cynical and bitter person i once hear someone told me. Perhaps. But everlasting positivity do not exist. One can only put your faith and beliefs on something to sustain that. Right?

Well probably do not make sense. But hey my BLOG.

Very BIG thanks i want to say to some of the faithful BTBs who had been with me throughout the entire journey so far... you all know who you are. Especially to Iris... thanks for this Satty.

Alrite...3 cheers to MISS Addy TAN soon - to - be MRS NG come Sep 15! ;P

Heroes ZOOM into SG

2007-09-07T10:49:00.000-07:00

My last post on non-wedding stuff. Sorry for the lack of posting for the past weeks. Had been totally uninspired after the last post. Too much happening till i don't know where to start. Anyway thats for another post to update. :)

*Points to my nick*

You are RIGHT, i was THERE witnessing 4 of the HEROES in SG! Thanks to my lovely boss who gave me the invite very last minute for me to go. SO there i was a tad under-dress (event dresscode was formal), i still press-on and went ahead with my colleague, Michelle. I felt so happy. Will attached piccies for your viewing pleasure.

Well the gala dinner was held at four seasons hotel and of coz dress code had to be formal. Pat (my boss) told me to just throw a shawl to my simple get-up. Thank goodness for Ray vietnam - indian looking shawl that saved the day. Armed with that i went to the dinner.

Moment we arrived, we saw many people holding their champagne and chatting away. In my mind i was only focusing from one thing aside from food. When we were finally sitted, i was so glad that we were right smack beside the stage. Hence we got a super view of the heroes. AIN'T IT AWESOME!!!

Anyway when the heroes came out, i was just starstruck literally. The cast were fantastic, and looking dashing. Even the boring Mohinder looks YUMMY!!!But the most cute was HIRO-san aka MASI OKA!! He was sooooo obliging to take pictures and do autograph. Gosh i can't even begin to start talking about it.

anyway, think pictures speak louder than words... here goes...

enjoy...

Preferential treatment

2007-08-31T12:41:00.001-07:00

Preferential treatment. Do you ever feel there was preferential treatment being given at any occasions? Say between boss and yourself, waiters and yourself, friends and yourself, family and yourself, member of the public and yourself?

Do you question yourself why are there preferential treatment? Are you bothered like I am? Nothing in particular, just that a colleague of mine was griping to me about boss favouring someone in the office. Similarly I encounter the same thing elsewhere.

I feel preferential treatments come about when people expect something out of nothing. And when that something do not deliver, that is when we or least I will get disappointed. Of coz boss can favour someone, coz he/ she is simply THE BOSS. Who are we to determine who to give priority to?

Same goes for the friends and families, sometimes just because you have a false sense of closeness, you expect certain things. In the end if that something do not come true, you feel a sense of discouragement like you ain’t good enough as a friend or family member. Hmm…wonder wonder…

Anyway,.,. That was just my observation around at times…

Yawnz,…k pretty late. Shall stop my griping here. Enough.. move along now… L

***Btw I think I will have 3 consecutive posts without mentioning about wedding and marriage. Now is the 2nd post.

doooodooooodoooooo

Evan Almighty thought about G

2007-08-28T10:36:00.000-07:00

Enough of ROM/ wedding updates. Shall not bore you all with the boring details.

A thoughtful post.

Today i went to watch EVAN ALMIGHTY with Trish. Thought it would be your normal typical comedy show. However strangely the show shruck a cord with me. I mean my friends will know me as someone who just takes whatever good things that come, i mean honestly the more the merrier. That is me. Well here goes...

The show talks about GOD asking Evan (Steve Carrell of 40 year old virgin fame) to build an ark. He showed him in Gen 6:14 (which in order to understand this verse completely you will need to read from Gen 6:13 to 22). Before this episode, Evan was a clean and selfish freak. He had neglected his family in order to be congressman and his slogan was 'Change the World'. So one day his family had decided to pray to God asking of certain things. His wife actually asked him what did he pray for? He could not answer, though he did pray in the end quietly in the middle of the night. He prayed that God will show him the way to 'Change the World.'

Subsequently God (Morgan Freeman) appeared before him and ask him to build an ARK. Being a freak that he was and facing the need to excel in his new role as congressman, he could not take it of coz. Friends and family started to see him as a weirdo or congressman gone mad. They all left him alone. This was the part that struck me. God actually appeared before his wife giving her advice since she was obviously feeling low that her husband had gone mad, building an ark in the middle of 21 century. God told her that when one prayed for a courage, do God give the person courage straight away or allow the person opportunities to display acts of courage?

At that point, the sentence was very poignant for me. I had been asking God to give me faith and also give me wisdom. I realized that he had been giving me various opportunities at my workplace to display my moments of wisdom. I had doubted HIS existence coz I had never felt HIM. I had think that HE was fake, or that I am just weird for not able to feel his existence.

Though till date I can’t say I feel his actual presence, but I think HE is definitely there. And like the show depicted, HE loved all of us before we know and love him.

One more thing from the show - Way to Change the World is by doing Acts of Random Kindness (ARK) one at a time.

Amen.

For more info about the movie, kindly visit the attached URL.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Evan_Almighty

Addy's happenings...

2007-08-13T10:53:00.000-07:00

It is bloody 1.30am and I have a swollen left eye. What can I write about? Plenty I say, but what do I CHOOSE to write about?

So far things had been well or so I like to believe. Work-wise continues to be frustrating at times when sudden bouts of depression and laziness threatened to overcome me. Why does it happen to me? Does no one else gets it, or is it only ME? I see my dear V getting all hyped up about work makes me ponder- AM I NORMAL?

Love-wise I can’t ask for a better partner that I want to be with. I just came back from a short National Day weekend trip to KL. Though we had a little setback with some loser, we are still good. Had a great time disturbing my darling’s KL life, and eating yummy food.

Wedding preps are a little crappy now coz I am a tad lost on what to do. Basically ROM is like settled, but what about actual day next year. Just settling a damm date makes it soooo frustrating. I am torn between wanting a good date and just settling for ANY dates. I mean honestly I should not be bother by these coz HE would have already blessed us. MY TAKE IS MORE BLESSING THE BETTER. Right? Not to worry blessings come from which side. Any good blessings I TAKE anytime. So now I am abit lost. What do I want for a wedding? I mean it is once a lifetime. Do I want to go the traditional way (which is the money sucking wedding dinner kind) or a non-traditional simple way (buffet and informal)?

I have many thoughts but I kind of think I will take the latter option. Have the morning RA-RA and tea ceremony. Take a few pictures, set off for my church ceremony and then buffet and MORE photo-taking. Next day, off to Batu Pahat for wedding luncheon for the Msian folks. I wish I can have the luncheon at KL instead. But NO my dear V wants it in BP though by then his parents will be nearer to KL. So now I think most probably I will have a simple luncheon at some CHEENA restaurant in BP. How UNEXCITING… Well that is what I have in mind, been thinking for past week. Will discuss with V when time I nearer. Hmm….

My bro impending wedding is also making my parents super kan cheong, YES YOU HEARD RIGHT!! MY nerd bro – BERNARD TAN is getting married to his girlfriend, Claire. Anyway I had asked him to NOT kajiao my date- October 25, 2008. So no way he can ask me to shift my dates.

Friend- wise, been awhile since I caught up with the girlies. Caught up with Yang and Ping last week, had a great time reminiscing about our secondary school days. So much fun back then, and of coz trying to find out what some of our classmates are up to. Am not surprise a lot of them seem to be married with kids in tow already. I mean what is up with these people, do they really like parent-hood soooooo much. Bbrrrrr….sorry I still can’t bear to think, though I probably should be thinking about it. hahaha…worry when time comes. Within the girlies, we have another BTB coming up and boy she is super fast than me. I admired her decisiveness in making all decisions. H – you go GIRL!!! \

Still going strong in my cardio mix class, though I had skipped at least 4 to 5 sessions but still good. Will continue with it, and in additional I signed another massage thingy. Apparently I am too gas-sy, hence the tummy bulge. So aside from curbing my carbo intake, I will be going for massage + hot blanket to bring down the damm bulge. Hope the massage can rub away those damm gas. Hahaha….

Shit my eye don’t seem to be letting up. Dammit, tomorrow better go see a doc. Hopefully it will subside by morning.

Yawnz…zzzz time…laterz…

July 21- Addy's Hen Nite party at Studio 54, MOS

2007-07-30T10:26:00.000-07:00

Pictures speak louder than WORDS. So guess i need not say more. Enjoy the piccies and have a good laugh....

BIG BIG THANK YOU to all my dear hens + 2 chickens who were celebrate the special night. Thanks for shou xia liu qing for not getting my the FLAMING!!! Apple shooter did the trick quite alright i say!!

^_^

Embarking on the first step towards commitment...

2007-07-16T08:55:00.000-07:00

Hey I realized with this new look, does it not look like a wedding blog. I mean all nice and pretty pink… haha…just a mindless thought there.

K, back to my BLOG title.

Gosh I just signed my life away on Satty with Vincent. We confirmed our house with HDB. Had our very first appointment with the officer and guess what. It had to fork out $800 bucks for the damm house after deleting all the loans and CPF deductions.

What can I do with $800?

1) Go to HK – visit Jan and my Bro? Even include shopping…
2) Last minute dash before GSS 07 is over
3) Nice dinner?
4) Quick getaway with V to some islands say BALI. I like that.
5) Consider another Tokyo trip perhaps? Hmm…maybe not.
6) Buy a nice LV wallet that I have been eyeing
7) Buy a nice watch??
8) Buy something diamond for myself??
9) Go into my Getting-Married fund?? Last resort

Haiz…well reality of it all. Responsibilities and financial burdens amounting. I don’t want to grow up and deal with this. But what can I do. I can’t fight age. :(

Funny pic above...Emily the Strange somewhat- balancing so many things

Marriageable age...

2007-07-06T10:42:00.000-07:00

Month of the weddings. I have 4 weddings to attend in the month of July. Every weekend I have a wedding.

I mean I am at the age where many girls start getting married. BUT of coz there are the single friends and those who are attached with no marriage in sight. Does one get pressured to get married just coz left right center you are getting wedding invitations to all other wedding except your own?

Do one start to question the validity of oneself? Wait a minute… what about those that get married when the feeling is RIGHT? There comes the age-old question- how do you know HE is the one for you? Many people just say ‘You will know when the time comes’. One can’t help but wonder do you just settle coz ‘oh we have been together long enough, lets move along. Don’t waste time liao.’ OR ‘You are the MAN for me, I am REALLY feeling it.’

It took me almost 7 years to decide it is time to take the plunge. It is a huge step I say. HUGE commitment. I mean I can’t believe it sometimes coz just a couple years back I could not even see myself walking down the aisle coz obviously I like to think I have a whole life spread out for me to enjoy. Isn’t that a funny and weird thought. Hmmm…..

As the wheels of age starts creeping in, I get lethargic, the occasional bouts of depression and somewhat jaded about life. I question what will happen to me if V did not come along. Will I be lingering around aimless and jaded? Who will be the man of my dreams? Seeing my gfs starting to all get hitched. I am both happy and also somewhat apprehensive. Who can promise everlasting love and marriage? Just as there are 100 successful marriages, there are also 100 failures. I see people who had been together for 10 years where in the end it ended with 3 words – Let us breakup.

The irony of it all coming from someone who is loved by her very own man… Thank you my dear for always being there for me and with me….

Shucks I have to wake up in approx 3 hrs….good luck to me…end of post…i say...

the trouble with blogs

2007-07-03T10:20:00.000-07:00

Faithful readers or so i thought maybe wondering what is up with me these days...

I think my blog been kind of messy these days. I have been trying to change the damm template. Like a techno whiz, I wanted to try my hand at changing the damm blog template only to end up with half f**k misalignment. Anyway all is good now, am back at good old blog template. *Yawnzz*

Nevertheless I will still try my best to change to a template soon as long as I can figure out all the damm html codes.

Geez…clueless Addy…

heee...a bo liao pics i took with V while on the bus home!!!

Spring cleaning...

2007-06-24T09:33:00.000-07:00

Wah...new look. Not bad right??? well not as good as i want it to be. But hey for a technology laggard like me...well not bad. So no complains...

Anyway, Pink is a tad unlike me but there wasn't any red. So this was the closest one i could find. In addition, added countdown ticker (abit seng eh/ distorted) to my ROM which is probably the biggest thing happening in my life now.

What else is happening?

1) Bought aircon for my parents
2) Confirm the caterer for the ROM
3) Confirm my MUA
4) Confirm my BS
5) Got my on-off swollen eye checked out
6) TBA when i can think of....

damm hot...last nite of the air-conless..tmrw BRAND NEW AIR CON!!! HUrray to that!!! another day closer .... :)

T O K Y O post

2007-06-18T10:21:00.000-07:00

Closest to Mount Fuji i ever got- a downloaded pic from Internet (how sad)

Well totally clueless supposed post. Been almost a month since the last post in May. Prior to that I had a few things happening. With our new house just firmed in May, so June I had to source for bridal studio and also go for my company incentive trip to TOKYO. YES you saw it correctly – T O K Y O!!!!woooohooo….land of the rising sun man!!!

Pictures are mainly in office now, so will upload a few when I get a chance in between work.

Can’t say that I managed to do all things that I want in Tokyo, but I guess within the given time – good enough. Wish I could have stayed one more day, wonder when will I go back there again. Think I like to travel alone, least I derive more satisfaction traveling by myself. Am I a loner? Am I an anti-social? Maybe I am or perhaps I just had not find a like-minded soul?

K, cut to the chase below is a list of things that I did & did not do when I was in Tokyo… heee

Managed to do->
1. Eat Ramen
2. Stood at the Shibuya famous junction – but only in the day
3. Went temple
4. Eat ice cream
5. Ate boiled beef
6. Went Harajuku though not as long as I would love to
7. Eat at Yoshinoya
8. Stand up counter noodle place
9. Vending meal- Fries
10. Vending drink
11. Shop at Shibuya 109
12. bought jap beauty stuff – heated eyelash curler and portable hand-held hair curler
13. bought jap magazines…
14. Pretend to ask Japanese men for directions
15. Cold enough to see my breathe

Did not manage to do ->
1. Shinjuku “NIGHT’” scene
2. See a yakuza
3. See mount fuji
4. Visit to the hot spring
5. Wear a kimono
6. take picture with cute jap boys
7. take picture with pretty jap girls
8. visit the fish market for the famous ramen store
9. SIP sakae
10. Day at Harajuku combing the shops
11. sleep in tatami style
12. not enough time at gotemba or go fancl.
13. underwear vending machine
14. not go to a traditional quiet shrine
15. did not witness a Japanese wedding
16. did not see snow….

The above are probably the things I could remember…heee…. Well till the next post! Oh also congrats to Nette – newly joined of the BTBs clan…

Post proposal preps...VNA lovenest...

2007-05-20T05:08:00.000-07:00

Damm blog site. Did not realise that i post a blank blog on May 21. Geez.... well anyway lucky i type it out in word...so still got that copy...

Here it goes...

What it should have been on May 21, 07...

Wow, been awhile since my last happy posts about my proposal. Been almost 3 months, since my dear V had proposed to me at the lovely pool of Krabi. So much and so little had happened since, that I do not even know where to start.

Anyway let me just say how happy I am that the members of the HAI group all got proposed shortly after me. So happy that all of them all said YES to their respective other halves. I mean isn’t it fabulous that you have all your good buddies getting married around the same time. I feel so blessed suddenly to have all these great friends around me.

Since the beaches of Krabi till date, we had started looking for flats, set the date for ROM (September 15, 2007), sourced for bridal studios, so many things so little time suddenly…

As of last Friday- 18 May, we finally found our love nest right in Admiralty. Address – Blk 787C, Woodlands Crescent, #05-48, Singapore 733787. We managed to get it at valuation – meaning no extra cash needed. Value of the 122sqm house is at $270k, and everything will be paid through our CPF. So next step, will be sourcing for Bridal Studio.

Looking at my situation of having 2 wedding receptions, I will be doing in JB. Can save costs and yet the effect is about the same if not better. Only thing is that it will be a hassle traveling up and down for the fittings.

Woah…taking a breather this weekend was soooo good. Finally no more tedious house hunting. I can look forward to my company TOKYO trip on the 30 May. Yipppeeeee…. And of coz that looming Athens trip that I wish I can take.

Well anyway …that is the update for now. Would like to continue relaxing and get ready for the dreaded Monday.

Yawnz… J

More Krabi piccies

2007-04-22T08:05:00.000-07:00

1st pic- taken at the hotel villa where V proposed to me...Railay Bay
2nd pic- V posing in front of a hut where we stayed over during our first night touchdown...Blue Village
3rd pic- Blue Village. Very rustic place with outdoor shower and toilet. Quite an experience...
4th pic- posing in front of the pool where V proposed to me... our last day before we head to main beach - Ao Nang

Well been long overdue. Almost a month since V proposed to me in Krabi. Back to reality and work, still think about the lovely times we had there. There was some depressed moments post-trip!

Nevertheless, now we need to get back on track and start preparing for THE WEDDING which is sooooo stressful.

anyway before anything else...here are the piccies as promised! enjoy...

Back from Krabi- Mr and Mrs NG...

2007-03-26T20:08:00.000-07:00

JUST BACK FROM MY KRABI trip with my darling V. Or should i say ahem...my Husband to BE!?? Yes proud to say i am going to be mrs NG!

V took our holiday trip/ my birthday gift as an excuse to propose to me. Throughout the trip he was very sweet to me, though he is ALWAYS very sweet to me. Well maybe MORE sweet than usual. BUt of coz who am i to complain when he is always ever so patient with me.

I must say he did put in effort into this proposal and i never could guess how he actually can find the time to get the ring and everything prepared. The whole process well how to put it...had me very touched. Let me try and pen this whole process down for future reference, though i already kept all his props that he had used for the proposal. =)

We arrived in Krabi on Thursday 22nd Mar around 6pm. It was quite a nerve wrecking touchdown. Was not sure what i ate but i had a major tummyache just as we were touching down. I rush down to the toilet the moment the air stewardess opened the cabin door. Anyways, V went to get us a cab after we cleared the customs. Cab fare was 600bht approx 25SGD.

Basically our itinerary was to stay in mainland- Ao Nang for 1 night before going to Railay Bay resort for the rest of our trip. A lot of places had been booked up so we managed to find a place call Blue Village off sawadee.com. It is quite a quaint little place with little huts all around, and it was about 10 mins walk from the main town.

After dumping our stuff and had a look through our little hut, we head towards town for dinner. Relaxing walk, hand in hand we were all ready to enjoy our little trip. It was nice. After walking around buying souvenirs mainly for MYSELF, we decided we got to eat. So we sat down at a little thai bbq place where we ordered some simple fare, and took some pictures.

Afterwhich, we continue walking around the beachfront and booked our tour for the rest of the 2 days that we were going to be in Krabi, bearing in mind that we will be moving to Railay the next day. We booked ourselves a day jungle tour + a day snorkeling at Phi Phi islands tour. Went back to Blue Village after booking our tours to rest for the next day of activities. At 12mn (my bday), V gave me 3 stalks of fake roses with 3 little notes attached to it. It was very simple and sweet. He told me that this trip was his gift to me, so he can only give me these simple roses. I was quite moved already, I mean how sweet is that. Anyway, was very tired I reckon from the night before (worked late).

Next morning when I woke up for the trip, I found another 6 roses beside me. All had little notes on it with more promises he would fulfill for me. I was like geez…what time did you get up to place the roses beside me. He wouldn’t tell me till date. Anyway off we go for the day trip, hiking round jungles and swimming in hot springs. It was nothing fantastic I thought. We went back to Ao Nang about 4pm. Had to get our luggage and head for a long tail boat that will bring us to Railay West where we will be staying for the rest of our trip.

It was getting dark with rain clouds approaching so we were hurrying for the boat to go faster. As we were making our way there, rain started coming down as little drizzle. So we were hoping to get to dry grounds before it poured. As usual, it does not happened the way you wanted, and the rain did POUR down before we head to dry grounds. We ran and ran once we were off the boat to a little café/ pub. It was quite depressing, running around with 2 big luggage especially for my dear V. I was alright since I just had to run. But he got to RUN with 2 big bags. I did offer to carry my own but he did not want me to.

In the end we just le-pak at the café till the rain went away. Basically stayed there till about 5pm where we finally could check ourselves to our hotel- Railay Bay resort and SPA. It was quite a nice hotel. After dumping our stuff, and giving me another 3 more roses, V dragged me out to go swimming. I was like no I would like to have a bath first. But he said no and dragged me out to the hotel bayside pool facing the lovely sea. I decided to just relak by the pool and perhaps get a chance to see the sun set since apparently you can see it from Railay. At about 530 or so he says, he asked me to go to the deck chair but I blatantly refuse as it was quite cold, and I was quite comfy inside the pool.
V decided to show me my final gift inside the pool. He came down with a little glass bottle with an anklet and another rose to wish me happy birthday. I was quite appalled by his taste of the anklet, though there was a star in it but it was absolutely hideous. But I did not tell him coz he was sweet enough to get me the gifts and everything else. Then he presented me with a bouquet of flowers with the line ‘Will you marry me?’ And he whipped out his ring and ask me again since I was speechless. I said yes and he slipped the slightly small ring into my left 4th finger.

After the proposal, V told me his original plan. The individual roses were supposed to represent each hour from 12mn onwards till the time he was supposed to propose to me at 5pm. That’s quite sweet right.

Anyway think this is a long enough post. I still got some piccies to share. I will put it in another post. Will let you see v’S PROPS to propose to me…. :)

Music and Lyrics - Chick Flick

2007-03-11T09:22:00.000-07:00

Woah...been awhile since i last blog. Mainly lack of inspiration and time to pen down my thoughts.

Anyway, just caught Music & Lyrics with Trish over weekend and it was the typical funny chick flick with its cheesy lines. But it had some funny bits which i will attached in this blog for you to see.

Basically Hugh was a 80's Has-Been, so in order to revitalize his career he got to write this song for this Britney- wannabe slut. Anyway attached is also the lyrics that was written. Thought its quite nice....

Enjoy!!! (",)

I've been living with a shadow overheadI've been sleeping with a cloud above my bedI've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh ohI've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the endoh,
oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into loveAnd if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the endoh, oh, oh, oh, oh---------------http://www.absolutelyrics.com/lyrics/view/hugh_grant/way_back_into_love/

Happy Belated Valentine Day!

2007-02-15T09:10:00.000-08:00

WoW!! CNY and then you have V-day! The most dreaded and i say mindless day. Yet to some people out there it is just another excuse to get pressies or waste $$$. Geez i think i sound damm bitter with that statement.

Not coz V is not around, but more so i was immersing myself at work. Of coz me and V had agreed not to get each other gifts since we are going to Krabi during my birthday. And of coz secretly i tot if V will surprised me with Flowers. In the end i did get surprise. The surprise was having V asking if his parcel had arrived. And knowing that his gift did not arrive in time and was lost somewhere in custom perhaps.

So there i was on Vday working all alone, whilst the girls in my office were dolling away and getting flowers from their significant other.

Of coz the parcel came TODAY. And VIOLA when i open it. IT WAS A bouquet of fake flowers with little bears in it. It was sooooo pretty and sweeet. This definitely beats the real HUGE bouquet out there. Coz this is everlasting and looks very cute.

Anyway i took pictures of coz. So will post for all of u to see.. :)

HAPPY VDAY to my dearest V!!! May we have many more to come.....

Addy's Seduction Style...errrm....

2007-02-13T09:30:00.000-08:00

One of my friends send me the link and viola, I AM THE LIBERTINE!!! Gosh when did i hear that damm word! I remember- it was that very very BAD JOHNNY DEPP movie i watched with Yiling and Trish!!!

Anyway i had digressed. Pls read below and i do beg to differ to some points raised. Oh well, watever.... enjoy!! :)

Hooked to Snow Queen

2007-01-28T07:57:00.000-08:00

More korean rantings from me. Well am catching this Hyun Bin's drama off Youtube recently. It is super sad...but Hyun Bin is just so yummy in the show. Am attaching some MVs for reference.

The OST is fantastic also, very soothing and nice. Do go watch..can't wait for the ep 14 - 16 to be uploaded! The series even got nice eng subtitles lor...so definitely worth uploading to watch it...

RAIN concert... 21 Jan 07

2007-01-26T22:27:00.000-08:00

Can't believe i was there. Points to my title!!! YES I was one of the screaming fans that was at his recent concert. Took me a week to post the blog on that coz everything is still a blurr about me seeing him in the flesh.

Thanks for Angela, who thought of me when she had a free tix. Obviously my stint in office on Friday prior to the concert worked. Hahaha.... Thanks nevertheless. that concert completed my weekend for sure... an experience to always remember.

The whole concert was super fantastic. i mean from the opening sequence to his dance moves and who can forget that YUMMY Butt of his. OMG....am totally gushing myself silly here!! Attached are some clips and pictures of BI- RAIN!!!

Sarang-heyo RAIN!!!THanks for coming to SIngapore. Thanks for making good that promise to SG fans despite your injury. HOpe he recovers real soooooon....

Goong S!!! Prince Hours...Another HIT? ugly man

2007-01-12T09:11:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u6eiAcmX0QE

Long awaited GOONG S- Sequel to Princess Hours finally debut in korea this week. Ratings dipped the 2nd ep. Am abit apprenhensive about it.

then again, have a look at this clip from youtube. Give you quite a good sense of what to expect from GOONG S! Concept seems exactly the same as first one, so not too sure wat so exciting when the cast are so ugly!!! How to compare with SHIN-Goon!!!!

Enjoy

Piccies upload- Continue....

2007-01-08T08:03:00.000-08:00

DAMM FRIGGIN BLOGGER SITE!!!so damm hard just to upload some piccies.

anyways continue from previous blog. Some piccies taken from KL and Meen's wedding.

BRAND NEW YEAR- 2007!

2007-01-07T08:03:00.000-08:00

Wah..HAPPY NEW YEAR! So fast 2007 descend upon us in a flash! New Year eve and New year just whizzed past. This year I welcome 2007 at Zouk-Phuture with Kai, Elene & Trish + Elene group of buddies from States. Can’t say I enjoyed it as much as I would want to. I was in a reflective mood, while I saw heaps of strange faces at the club. Both young and old, cool and wannabes, ugly and the fambots!

I was thinking back to the time when I was out there clubbing hard with Stephanie and Cecilia- goal of the night was to get as many dudes’ mobile numbers. Can’t believed that almost 10 years had passed since those days. Still remember Danny and Malcolm, Conrad and Alex, and I think couple more which I can’t remember already. As the clock struck midnight, I stood there hugging almost everyone and feeling a tad awkward when I ran out of people to hug. I started to think back the different people that came through my life since the day when I started to have a life of my own.

From my poly days to the OUB days, where clubbing almost every other week with Lyon and company. I realized how true are all these friends. How many of these friends can I truly call in my time of need? I used to think I have many friends that I placed a lot of emphasis on. Many a times, I even choose them over my darling V.

Thinking back at that point when midnight struck and 2007 just came on. It dawned on me that how many of my so-called friends will be affected by me should something happened to me? I meant that question NOT in a bad way like something is going to happen to me. More of just questioning the fact of it all. Aside from V and my own family, who else value me? Where are my “HUAN NAN ZHI JIAO”?

When I was at Zouk dancefloor, and the strange faces being in front of me, I started thinking back what happened to those dudes? Bet they aren’t partying anymore but had moved on to finer things in life. Wish I knew what happened to them. I mean a part of me wish to know. Duhz. Anyway I don’t think I am going to club anytime soon. Am seriously too old for that, unless there are some eye-candies, else forget about it, Geez do not think I can get through another clubbing phase!!

By-gones… Enough of those melancholic shit!!! 2007 means another year of RENEWED faith that everything anew and fresh. Of coz who can forget about the dreaded RESOLUTIONS!!! What is mine- a question that V never fail to ask me for the past 6 years. With each year I always tell him the same. I set none and I accomplished all!! I want to be different this year, since I do feel that there is this energy being set out for me. Here goes:

1) Go for a medical checkup- FULL BODY CHECKUP
2) Exercise 2x a week, moving to 3x a week. FINAL COUNT- 4x a week
a. Options available – Jogging round my block, attend gym class, cycling
3) Change my thinking – get out of my comfort zone. Walk with HIM & V (SPIRITUALLY)
4) HONOUR MY PARENTS
5) SAVE MONEY!!!

Think that about covers what I want to do. Check back on Dec 31 2007 and see what is the update.

BASHAA ADDY!!!

NOTE: Some X'mas piccies and Meen's recent wedding

Romancing our relationship

2006-12-29T09:17:00.000-08:00

This post is dedicated to my dearest V who had surprised me last week. He sent half a dozen sunflowers to my office out of the blue. Mainly to cheer me up since he knew i was feeling a tad stressed and down from work.

So there i was feeling stress over work when the receptionist came through the door with this lovely bouquet of sunflowers and a CARD!

The card had such loving words that i just had to thank my darling for sending it through. Thanks for being the romantic boyfriend who surprises me in the most unlikely way.

And of coz, though we did agree not to give X'mas gift, he still never fail to surprise me with a simple gift of affection. Giving me a pair of earrings. Thankfully i also had a little gift prepared. Though there wasn't a card. But i think being there and thanking you personally is good enough.

I can't think of anything else that i want than you. Thanks for being the way you are, and encouraging me when i am down. We will walk together with HIM and listen to his WORD.

Attached is a picture of the sunflowers he sent me. So nice hor... kekeke

Curse of the golden flower

2006-12-22T21:00:00.000-08:00

Went for the gala premiere recently. Sadly Gong LI and Jay CHOU did not turn up. And of coz can't really be bothered to say FA-GE also.

The movie is very gory and showed heaps of half spilling tits! I swear the costume seem super uncomfortable.

Anyway i attached this video from Jay- the slow number from the movie which i kind of like.

Hope you enjoy....

Fav korean drama moments

2006-12-17T06:53:00.000-08:00

hey hey been awhile since i had updated my blog with some videos from Youtube. Least since the last one on the craze of GOONG!!!

Recent views had been My girl, Marrying a millionaire and Hwangini?? Had not got a chance to watch more than i want to ...coz no lobang and no time!!!

Already aim a few titles from my korean drama database!!wooooo...can't wait to get my hands on them....

A baby machine = sow!?

2006-12-16T23:51:00.000-08:00

More piccies from my retro party....haha...

Woah... been awhile since a proper blog about my thoughts. As 2006 draws to a close, which i think it had flew past pretty darn fast.

More about my thoughts in another post. Right now i just wanna talk about Child bearing. I was going through my own friendster and i realised a ex-colleague of mine just got pregnant again. Her little princess is like barely 9 months lor.

I think there should be a resting period for one's stomach or whatever it is. i mean it is a friggin baby that just popped out.

Anyway was also looking at some of my fren's baby piccies. I start to wonder, will one ever despise their own child coz they are ugly. I personally do not think i can stand it should my own kid turn out ugly. Some may say i am cruel and shallow, but i can't help it.

Kids are already troublesome as they are, it will makes it twice as painful when they are ugly. isn't it??

oh well guess i am rambling again. just some random thoughts that i wanna pen down.... will write more soon..especially year is coming to an end...am getting another farking year older.... dammmmmit...

Retro Nite Out

2006-12-11T03:41:00.000-08:00

PHD Retro Babes + Hunks

Louise + Pat + Addy

Addy + Russ + Louise

WOW...so much fun since my last post.

Our company had our annual D&D last Friday and the best thing about this D&D is- it was held at a GAY BAR called MOX!!! It was definitely in line with our theme for the D&D- RETRO! The decor was very psychedelic and nice...attached are some of the piccies taken that nite!!

Yours truly got the BEST DRESSED alongside with my boss - Ray! Prize was 200bucks which about a hundred went to my Hair, Makeup + dress! Thank goodness i got a good deal for the dress i chose in the end.

Another highlight of the nite was RANDALL TAN!!! MY goodness he was so gorgeous, was trying hard not to pounce on him considering how cute he was. But of coz at the end of it all, the girlies all went in line to take pic with him. Poor him, he must have felt like an exhibit!! :)

Anyway, not all piccies are uploaded. Will upload once i get it, since i did not bring my own camera that night.

Alritey enjoy the piccies...

more piccies from 6 years of loving...continue...

2006-11-29T05:05:00.000-08:00

This is a much better shot with my fats sticking out. But hey we got the camera on TIMER mode...still at the curve though...this is inside the curve...

Still at the curve and not so sick about taking pictures, so pulled Dear2 and just snapped!! kekek..dohz...

eh eh me in my NEW ARMANI SPECS...dun i look nice and nerdy introducing bukit bintang! Somemore got a good price for it. Good steal!! GO ADDY!!!

Tourist tourist...me taking with the CURVE behind me! This is where all the big mega malls in m'sia are incl IKEA, Cineleisure...and alot more...looking a tad tired of coz... see my aunty hairstyle...
Irritating Dear2 as he drives...to take pic with me! heee...PEACE!!

6 years of loving

2006-11-29T05:02:00.000-08:00

Well last month was my 6th years anniversary with Vincent.

Been a very tough year for us, given that he now resides in KL while yours truly resides in SG. Ever so proud that he is my man, even though he is a tad swollen right now due to all the good food and zzing in KL. Just want to say thanks to my DEAR V who had faithfully stand by me through these years, and for making the constant trips back to SG just to be with me.

I think we both now can look ahead now and looking forward to many years to come. But of coz not forgeting you are working hard to earn me my carats first, RIGHT!!! hahaha....

oh well, carats aside. This anniversary was very special coz V actually SURPRISED me. I know he ain't exactly like to surprise me coz i always put him down since i got so much expectations. But this time, he truly surprise me with a COUPLE SPA at this very cosy place.

The place was very balinese and people were very warm towards us. We had our own little room and our spa bath. So shiok that i fell asleep during the massage....niceeee.... and of coz what is anniversary without flowers. He got flowers in his car just to surprise me. A bunch of LILIES... though i was expecting roses. STILL LILIES were just as lovely...

So was up in KL for a whirlwind 4 days 3 nights, where i got to hang out with his cell mates, played pictionary, did abit of shopping (got 3 pairs of shoes), ate alot, din zzz alot. Think thats it.

Will attached some piccies for your viewing pleasure...since i think my blog getting a tad boring due to the lack of piccies. And truly think the korean youtube are driving people quite mad...though that is still my true passion.... :)

alrite..enjoy the piccies... till the next post...hmm...

Marrying a millionaire...dreaming...

2006-11-07T10:09:00.000-08:00

After SELF CENSORING MY OWN BLOG, this is another entry. For I had deleted that very abusive blog against my own darling V. For that childish behaviour, I apologized to my dearest dear2- V.

Anyways, all is good and happy happy now. We GOT OVER that incident and back to our loving self. Haha, after a few hugz and muakz we moved on….

A thought came to me tonight. ‘Marrying a millionaire’ was the title of a Korean drama that I just finished watching. The storyline was very simple and some would say predictable. But certain bits were truly touching and romantic that I cried whilst watching (what else is new).

I start asking myself, what matters more? A guy who can bring you security for the future or a simple honest guy who can offer you a true heart? In this harsh cruel reality where it is such a fine line between true innocent and superficial lust, how do we differentiate what do we really want?

I just got news from a girlfriend of mine that she is getting married next year. This coming from her is really something significant. She was the person with the most negative view about getting married since she had some bad past experiences. She only been with this Dutch dude for like a year and a half, and she is all ready to take the plunge. I had the strangest thought when I heard the news. Was definitely happy, but at the same time I wonder if its true love. Or is it the illusion of the social security the guy could bring to the table.

Call me the skeptic or a jealous bitch, but that was my thought. My girlfriend even specifically said that she said YES to her fiancé before she even saw the ring. Does it mean that she worries that I might think otherwise? Hence she made it a point to highlight to me when telling me the process of his proposal to her. YES it was romantic, being something different and definitely a pleasant surprise.

BUT is one and a half year enough to know a person that you want to stay together forever and ever? Me and V been together for 6 years and I really like it that we have this synergy when we are together. Somehow we kind of understand each other on certain days just by looking at each other or finishing each other sentences (though of coz there are days we argue too). I don’t know and I don’t have any answers.

I know people says 6 years are long, so what are we waiting. They ain’t see enough couples I say, coz I have a couple friends for almost 10years. Still not getting married.

Yawnz…late already…damm…neeed to zzz…sleepy…battle at work tomorrow. 

Freedom of blogging...think again...

2006-10-29T10:03:00.000-08:00

Why do we blog? I am sure every blogger thought or even blog about that question at some point in time.

Concept of blogging was introduced to me only about last year. I must say I was pretty confused about the purpose of blogging for awhile. I mean it was told to me that I can blog down my personal thoughts and possibly give people an insight to myself. Immediately I thought isn’t that like writing an online diary but of coz you give access on to people whom you know (example friends).

Of coz, I realized for the more adventurous with a flair with words, they will become IN-famous bloggers. I mean there are even awards given to these group of elite bloggers. I mean it is amazing when you pay these blogger site a visit and be amazed at what they blogged about. I don’t mean the above like it is a bad thing. My personal opinion is that this is good coz in a way it encourages thinking and to a CERTAIN extent freedom of speech. I mean come on even the ministers are blogging. So there had to be some pros out of blogging.

My blog is definitely not in the elite group, I mean it is not even on the intermediate level. A lot of times, I wonder what to blog about. I mean there are web spies lurking around to catch any bloggers who blog out of line. And since I had given access to my blog to a few close buddies and even my dear V. It clearly meant that there are certain things I can’t put in my blog especially my inner thoughts.

Having said the above, that does not mean whatever I have written so far are rubbish and fake. i just screened through before I blog it down. Because I know it is NOT my personal diary that I had kept since Primary school.

Of well, I like my own blog. Though it is unexciting to most, but the contents are truly dear to me. At least the rare times I DO blog are times which I want to share my thoughts with people. Example this blog.

I dedicate this blog to anyone who reads this. Thanks for reading the above whimsical thoughts of mine. I love TV and TV makes me happy in case you do not know YET. 

Till the next time I blog again, perhaps another Korean drama that I wanna share? Nah…mind still filled with my SHIN and GOONG!!! Whhoooooo…….

Princess Hours

2006-10-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

Whoa...super long time never blog.

Well short post. Aside from work, i had been busy watching this new korean drama (no surprise) called GOONG.

Alright am a tv addict, i love spending my time doing basically nothing but watch TV. People say it is NO - life, but to me that is life. MY LIFE.

Watching all these dramas, though it creates an unrealistic view about life. It does offers that escape to the TV World. Where everything is happy ever after, though unrealistic and childish that may sound.

Anyway, heaps of online materials about this drama coz it is supposedly a mix between full house and DA CHANG JIN. I totally love the story- typical cinderalla and prince kind of story. THE OST is lovely too. have a listen. i have attached the MVs for your viewing and listening pleasure. Perhaps love is my favourite song of the OST, i have been playing on loop whole day at work. Probably driving my boss nutz... :)

Once again thanks to YOUTUBE.

alright. Another work week, another day closer to my 6th year anniversary with V!!! :)

Fav videos of the moment ...heeee

2006-09-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

Wah...another chance to quickly add some videos to my blog. These are my two fav songs at the moment. First song being from the TVB drama - Revolving doors of Vengence; Second from JAY CHOU. Got the extended version. Courtesy of Youtube.

Thats all for now. Will blog properly when i am home.... :) enjoy the videos...

KSW OPPA came and gone...

2006-09-11T03:43:00.000-07:00

WOW!!! been a flurry and blurry last week.

I did not get to see my dearest KSW oppa, but there was alot of reports of him. Am going to post some piccies of him.

Gosh i can't stop gushing about him. Every angle from the website, he looks gorgeous!

Anyway here are some piccies of him...my dearest OPPA!! aww...><

OPPA KWON SANG WOO!!!

2006-08-29T10:21:00.000-07:00

THE UNBELIEVEABLE had happened.

KWON SANG WOO is coming to Singapore this WEEKEND!!! *SCREEAMS* I am so using my job to see if i can wiggle myself into one of his many interviews. i just want to take a picture with him.

Perhaps a hug or kiss from him will be nice. mmm... niceee... geez trying to upload some pics onto the blog. Seems something wrong. Shucks ....

Want to share lovely piccies of my OPPA KSW!!! awwwww.....

the FIRST time for everything...

2006-08-27T07:40:00.001-07:00

I CRIED on FRIDAY at work! I made my very first mistake at work. THE ONE MISTAKE that i can never make. I made a booking without cancelling it. And coz i only realised it at the very last minute, there is no way i can cancel without incurring any surcharges.

I could not take it and i broke down. I feel like a damm loser for crying at work. But i could not help it. Damm ...

Anyway embaressing coz my bosses saw me, and of coz i went home on the mrt with puffy eyes!

Just thought i blogged about this. Just a mental note to remind myself not to ever make that mistake again.

:)

Perfect Life & me...

2006-08-24T08:07:00.000-07:00

“…it's tempting to wish for the perfect boss, the perfect parent, or the perfect outfit. But maybe the best any of us can do is not quit, play the hand we've been dealt, and accessorize what we've got.”

Been a while since I last blogged. Had a lot of offline comments since the last ‘serious’ blog. It is funny, wrote it whilst I was feeling inspired. Obviously I had used the word document rather than the actual blog site (to prevent my blog being lost should the site hang on me).

What is going on with my life whilst time passes. I have been working ceaselessly and squeezing whatever remaining brain juices I had got left. Work had gotten a lot more demanding. Clients are requesting more and more of me, and I sometimes wonder how do I split myself to attend to their requests. Am I an ambitious girl? I do not think I am. In fact, I think I am quite happy to be at a small level bringing home a decent amount of monthly pay.

Back to my quote above. Thought it was appropriate theme for what I want to blog about tonight. I often wish I have the perfect life compared to my peers. Quite often I am secretly envious of friends and family members. Usually I become very remorseful after the envy moment passed. I wonder what I have that is lacking, or inadequate. How do I actually make myself measure up to my peers? May sound like I have inferiority complex, but honestly I think everyone does feel it at one point or another. Self-doubt of your own abilities?

Having been working for at least 6 years, I wish I can stop time and take away nasty people. I often asked myself why do some people have to be so difficult? I do not think we are born to be difficult people. So where and how did that trait come about? Again one of the many many questions that I have no answers. Perhaps like the above quote, we all strive to have a perfect life which more often that NOT does not happen that way. So I guess we all just have to deal…

V and me had been attending this pre-marriage service by Paster Kong. I think I mentioned in passing. So far I must say as much as I do not like going church, the services had been very helpful and insightful. I do think that it will help prepare myself for the next stage of my life. The very thing that is scaring me mostest!!! Getting MARRIED! I mean sometimes I feel I am ready, and certain days I wake up feeling thankful I am still single. Though I do not agree 101% of whatever the Pastor had shared, but I do think it make sense. It gives me a better perspective of how can a couple function together. Most important to respect and love each other for the next 50 odd years.

I am very thankful I have a loving boyfriend whom I had grown to love and respect a lot more than I used to. I think both of us had come a long way from the initial puppy love to a mature relationship. I like the little things that he does for me, and vice versa I DO want to surprise him occasionally too. I think thast is what makes relationship fun. Of coz, not all is just about FUN and play. V is a serious boy, so sometimes he will also bring out the thinker in me. Though I ain’t exactly the thinking kind of person, but I am happy he does that to me. Just hope I do influence him in certain ways.

I will try and see what else I can blog about this pre-marriage thingy. Each session Pastor Kong will talk about different issues. There will also a session about SEX of coz which he had guess that it will be the most controversial and packed service. 

Think that is it for now…tired …this blog actually took me 3 weeks to write. Had been siting on my desktop for ages…. Finally can post liao….feel free to pen down some comments ….tyvm….

Pondering and wondering...my sleepless nitezz

2006-07-24T10:30:00.000-07:00

“We are adults. When did that happen? How do we make it stop?”

How can one move so fast that one lost track of what had been happening around? How do I determine that I am ready to move into another stage of my life? It is hard enough getting through my early twenties; I wonder how is the rest of my life going to be. I am trying to take that big leap to the next level, which I find it very daunting. The big C word – commitment. How do I overcome that hurdle and get my butt moving.

I don’t have answers to all the questions, which I find it popping into my head just before I drift off to a dreamless slumber lately. I have been thinking about all aspects of my life at this stage I am right now. Commitment to my family, friends, work, colleagues, and dear2 V (not in any level of priority). I find myself very torn about the various roles that I have to juggle in order to get by day by day. So much to think, so little time.

Reason for all these questions arise mainly coz, V and me are attending this marriage service conducted by Pastor Kong over a few weekends. It just started last weekend. It is supposed to help soon to be wed couples and those thinking about getting married couples; basically all couples. On Saturday, he went through the topic of “What is a Christian Marriage?” I have to say biasness aside, that it brought about some very good points and explanations about the whole point of getting married. I have always thought that there is no need to get married unless you want to have kids or legal sex. In addition, I feel that at this current moment, nothing lasts forever.

There is no everlasting love or marriage. One point that Pastor Kong brought up- divorce rate is the same in the church and also outside of church. So it shows that church people are also human after all. They go through the pain as non-believers like me, though Bible strictly forbid divorce. I guess we are all human, whatever that do not work it do not work. We all take the easy way out and just quit. He also shared an observation that when man cheats, woman is always more forgiving and willing to try again. However, vice versa happens, a man is unlikely to forget and forgive. Instead he will go the standard route of calling it quits.

The second service is about “A couple’s role”. I went away from the service with some insights which I thought clear some doubts that I have about couple. Like what it meant by functioning as one. How we are supposed to detach or wean ourselves off our parents when we are married. And one point that I have shared with some friends is the answer to the AGE-OLD question. “if there is a sinking boat, who shall the husband save? Mother or Wife”? Answer is in the bible – 1 COR. 7-33. THE WIFE of coz. Quite funny when the pastor said that.

Basically the weekend was quite nice, V will be traveling to and fro for the coming services. We both take it as investment for our better future. So he is putting extra effort for this and I will tell myself not to sleep during service. Which I had successfully did it over the 2 weekends.

Am looking forward to more of the service, I think it will help us to move to the next stage and of coz we can grow as well.

Shucks want to write more…but am getting quite sleeeeepy …shall end now and perhaps continue to find my answers just before I drift off to zzz land….

Title-less...

2006-07-12T10:18:00.000-07:00

In case you are wondering, how come I have not been blogging for awhile. Reason being the friggin blogging site lah. DAMM those administrators, what the hell are they doing? Zzzing… I actually spent a good blardeee hour typing a blog last night, only to lose it during posting the damm blog. Damm friggin pissed off that I went to zzz.

I mean SERIOUSLY!!! I actually bothered to pen down my specific thoughts and the damm site had to do that to me. Very irritated…. Anyway I can’t blardeee remember what the hell I wanted to say anymore. Forget it…

Basically from the last depressed self-doubt post, things are still the same. Though depressed thoughts about my work had decreased but personally still have a quarter part of my self still in depressed mode.

Actually I think I alternate between happy and depressed moments. Like when certain things are mentioned I am happy, certain things happen I will get depressed.

Ok enough depressed crap. Am clueless what I wanted to blog about. Fark. Shall go zzz then….

Depressed post!

2006-06-29T10:00:00.000-07:00

Woah.. been awhile since my last boliao post.

Still as bo-liao as ever. Been stressing out over a major make or break presio. Been doing abit of self-evaluation of myself too. Wondering what is wrong with me. I think i have inferiority complex, i spend half of my time self-doubting my own abilities.

Even if people commend my efforts, i still don't feel it is good enough. When will it ever be enough i ask myself? I don't know man. At work, i feel abit alone. Though am back with my family, however things are not like before. I think i am a loner, like what i said before. TV is my best companion. It makes me happy.

In not so many words, future seems uncertain. Thoughts about my past been catching up with me. Somehow I seem happier indulging in the past than stressing out about my present and future.

This is a depressing post. Do not mind me.
Some funny videos off Youtube about SICK JAPS!!! haha enjoy!!

my korean dramas...

2006-06-25T07:26:00.000-07:00